u/No-Painting-6697

I am on the invega injection and want to quit it

I want to get off invega

anhedonia from antipsychotics and from post psychosis makes it extremely hard to enjoy anything. They say time enjoyed is not wasted. But would that mean I’m just in a waiting period of life trying to get back to normal where I can enjoy living. I feel like I’m in jail wasting my life right now . It’s hard not to feel jealous of others brains right now

Mine never tells me and just says when I’m stable enough . I have been stable for 8 months . I can’t take this pain anymore

My doctor told me when I’m stable I can get off but it’s been 8 months . He even told me in the hospital I didn’t look like I had symptoms that would warrant a hospital stay . Fml man why did I have to get injected with this . I don’t even know if the damage is permanent

I’m just scared when I get off I won’t be back to normal . I don’t think I’d be able to take that anymore

I didn’t have any friends my whole life from the 6th grade till now age 24. I had depression due to facing online racism and other body image issues . I didn’t want to get up in the morning . I found weed and it helped me escape for a little bit but it gave me psychosis . I’m now on antipsychotics and am the most miserable soulless grey existence I have been . This feels like mental torture I just can’t do this anymore . I heard this can even be permanent . Can I fucking breathe . It’s just constant wave of depression or mental illness that makes me nostalgic for my previous depressive episodes . It just always gets worse

If you speak more than 1 language have you lost the ability to speak your second language to your fullest extent . Could this be due to psychosis antipsychotics or a combination of both

I found weed at a time of depression. I couldn’t wake up without feeling like every day was torture . I found weed and it was the best escape. Fast forward 5 years later I hit the cart and became psychotic thinking I was some spiritual guide and had delusions about my family being against me. I didn’t sleep and that made it worse and I ended up in a psych ward. I’m now on antipsychotics and this is the worse part of my life so far . I don’t even want to look at weed anymore . I’ll just stick to alcohol when I recover

I just enjoy sleeping so much now . I don’t have any real hobbies besides listening to music and walking. Music doesn’t hit the same as well . I just really enjoy sleeping

I’m planning on quitting this drug

It’s like I’m way better than when I was psychotic but still way to much of a grey feeling in life compared to pre psychosis and pre antipsychotics . I just feel stuck in life like I don’t know what I’m supposed to do besides wait for this phase to be over

Would 1 year be a good point to get off. My doctor doesn’t give me a straight answer and just tells me “we will see”

Since psychosis and being on Antipsychotics my only hobbies have been listening to music , walking and surfing the internet and doomscrolling. Before psychosis I tried limiting doomscrolling and was aware of how much I would regret it in the future . Now it’s basically a requirement to get through the day . I really wanted to pick up hobbies but that’s now delayed

They told me I would have to take the invega injection for 6 months or invega pills for 1 year. I chose 6 months injections . Now as I’m done my 6 months my psychiatrist says that you have to be on it longer as psychosis has no cure. Each day has been torture mentally on these meds

I’m trying to learn how to draw and play guitar

Feels like a form of mental torture everyday when you are a robotic zombie but that’s still better than being psychotic . So I guess the rest of my life is just going to be this . This is not fair man I can’t take this anymore

The fact that most Indians aren’t angry about this is why we can never rise as a race. The Indian race is always low crime yet gets lumped into spaces with North Africans arabs and others as a high crime committing rate despite stats in every western country saying the same . Even in Canada where they cry the most . We are literally just working jobs and getting insane amount of hate . White ppl killed and ate people and no one bats an eye

How long did it take for you to get to that level . Currently I have to force myself to enjoy my free time while on INVEGA. It’s been 7 months since my psychosis . I can watch tv here and there but I don’t feel anything . It’s like it’s a neutral viewing . Not positive not negative . It wouldn’t have made a difference if I didn’t watch it . Same with video games I can’t play them anymore .

I’m still going to take the medicine and I am grateful I’m not psychotic but I feel like a zombie . I have no real hobbies anymore I just listen to music and it doesn’t sound the same as it did before . I just walk in circles all day. How do I feel better on this ?