r/Psychosis

i can feel a clear difference before and after.

The problem with psychosis is that it's a self fulfilling prophecy. You start with the idea that people are watching you, want to hurt you. It's hard to act 'normally' once you have such a belief. The more nuts you act in public, the more likely it is somebody will actually call the cops on you and have you locked up. The more you resist the more violent your captors become... the scarier everything gets... this is what i wish people understood about psychosis. At a certain point you're not imagining things, because whatever you imagined has become real.

You subconsciously believe and sees that the devil know why you are.

(24F) I feel like I need to die to end this humiliation cycle. I just done too many things.

I put myself in legal trouble. (No one hurted, I just have a case because of my behavior)

I screamed and yelled in public when I lost control at home.

I lost my control in public, also at hospital.

I was talking to myself 24/7 for two years. I disturbed everyone in family and when I was in psychosis I hit them.

I was very delusional, for about four months I followed a tv channel of a foreigner country to get ‘secret’ messages.

I lost myself and send hundreds of nude pictures and videos to a stranger who still threatens me.

I slept with many men and I travelled to very risky places to sleep with them.

When I come back to reality. It’s been about half a year or so. I no longer have scenarios in my mind. But I got fat. I’m fully medicated and fully aware of everything. I can see the big picture. My life is totally destroyed in last two years for this psychological disorder called psychosis. I have nothing to hold in my life except my family. I destroyed my self image. My education.

I didn’t use drugs in my life. It was genetic. And I hate it. I don’t want to remember anything. I was sexually assaulted back to few years ago, and I was just in therapy for that. Years later, I got sexually assaulted again when I was in psychosis. I still carry the burden of past and my past bad memories, and the new ones, and the psychosis. Every day I remember something I’ve done when I lost control. It’s too humiliating, and I can’t change past. I don’t want to sleep but medication is helping me to go to sleep. I remember in the past I was crying every night because of the assault. Now every night all I think is my past absurdity.

i know i’ve had psychosis in the past. but that is not this. this is REAL. but everyone doubts and attacks. how to deal with People not agreeing with you? and saying you’re in psychosis. besides, i take 800mg of seroquel xr and 3mg of risperdal so if i were psychotic that shouldn’t be happening. i’m so scared and confused and no one is admitting to seeing what im seeing or hearing what im hearing or believing what im believing.

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I’ve had psychosis 3 times and have been diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features because of it. I’m still hesitant to accept this life sentence and take medication forever because each episode had a particular trigger. 2 of them were postpartum psychosis and the other was marijuana-induced. I feel like I need a “natural” episode to accept this fate, but maybe all psychoses develop due to a particular trigger and that is qualification in itself to be diagnosed. Thoughts?

Hi all, yesterday I realised I may have had a psychotic episode last year during 8 months. Examples of things I did:

- invested all of my money into a stock I “knew” was going to make me a millionaire, lost it all of course.

- believed my coworkers had a hidden agenda against me because I was working too good. I was a genius in my mind and therefore they wanted to bring me down so that I dont outshine them.

- distanced myself from all of my friends because I am sure they are talking negatively about me behind my back.

- got into conflicts with almost everyone at my last job, burned a lot of bridges and did not handle the hand over to my replacement very well

- had an inflated sense of my abilities

- auditory hallucinations that sounded like distant sirens

- panic attacks frequently

- drinking alcohol every day in periods and doing a lot of coke and weed.

I have switched jobs and been sober for 2 months now. I feel like a new person but I can not believe how I was acting. I contacted my local psychiatrist to see what they have to say about this. What else should I do. Does this sound like psychotic behaviour to you?

Psychosis experiences - moderation

I've been using opiates since I was 18 at 20 I got clean until an accident they prescribed them to me for in 2013. in 2014 after they stopped prescribing them I came across kratom as a safer method and used it ever since. Outside of the depression and anxiety from heavier abuse, I started experiencing delusions and psychosis in 2016. I kept drinking and taking kratom up until 23' when I got sober from alcohol and 24' I tapered slowly off kratom with lots of help and support of another subs members.

I thought alcohol and kratom were what was causing the delusions and psychosis so I quit. Fast forward 2 years and I just had a psychosis relapse while sober. they prescribed Suboxone 4 months after quitting kratom cause they said I was going through PAWS and I've been on that since. I want off everything though but the psych meds to see what my base line actually is. what they are prescribing me now doesn't help a shit ton. I'm having mania, and panic attacks from the anxiety and on top have been severely depressed since getting sober. Recently I finally started having kratom cravings. I just need some type of relief from this stuff. my hair is falling out from the stress of it all.

My question to y'all is, how many of you hear voices, believe delusions, or have had non substance induced psychosis? If any, did kratom help alleviate those symptoms at all in moderation and on a strict protocol? I've gotten really good at tapering myself off things over the years and taking things by the book. i am wondering if I should return to responsible kratom use to help stabilize and get my life back on track. like I have barely been able to work. It's been ridiculous and debilitating for me mentally and physically. Sobriety things are supposed to get better. I'm just so tired of the stress. so tired. It's impossible for me to relax and I sleep in fragments for over 8 hours. I don't know if the meds shot my nervous system or if long term alcohol use, kratom use, isolation, depression, and sedentaranism shot it but it's absolutely shot. The largest problem is it puts me in a state of freeze constantly. My brain runs 90 mph while my body can only go so fast and feels hard to move.

Thanks in advance for any insight you all may have. I would very much appreciate not being alone in this but I'm simultaneously always alone. Much love and respect.

Hey everyone,
two years had passed since a very strong psychotic episode, currently still taking olanzapine.
I feel like I haven't experienced joy or fun in a very long time, for people who are still in recovery or those who have healed completely, does the joy comes back or not ?

When I first got psychosis i remember my primary fear was that the demon is trying to get me to believe I’m someone who I’m not and get me to believe I’m someone suicidal. Over the years, the fear went from me just trying to protect my feelings and emotions from the devil, to just fight or flight, I slowly started to feel like I’m losing the battle with the devil. It’s like it programmed my brain into someone who has to keep fighting battles over how I feel. But before psychosis I felt at peace and acceptance with how I feel, I remeber feeling a lot more, like nothing was worth fighting over in life.

My friend(we are on and off together) has been addicted to cocaine most of his life and this last year he has started to see and hear things that aren’t real.

Do people in psychosis know they have psychosis.

Eg one night he was showing me his live ring camera video and he was telling me to look all desperate and telling me not to tell him he’s crazy but that he could see me in it… it was just a bunch of grey pixels.

He’s started accusing me of things that aren’t real too. He has always accused me of seeing me do things when I worked as a stripper when we were in a real relationship but he can’t let this go he also can’t leave me alone but I do care about him.

He doesn’t have much access to medical because hes undocumented.

If anyone can give me any insight or advice I’d really appreciate it because I don’t know how to help him.

Hello everyone! I’m a second-year medical student with a particular interest in the mind, and I intend to specialize in psychiatry. I’m writing a psychological horror book set in the late 1990s, where the teenage protagonist hears voices and sees things, is discredited by everyone, and is followed by a psychiatrist. Although I plan to maintain deliberate ambiguity throughout the story—creating the doubt of “did she imagine this?” vs. “is there something paranormal?”—I’d like to hear accounts from people who experience psychosis/schizophrenia, to make it more realistic, in addition to the research I’ll obviously do on the topic. I’d like to know what it’s like: what you hear, what you see, what you feel, when it starts and when it ends, whether it persists, and how it worsens

Ever since I realized that this world is just an AI-generated simulation, I stopped trying to play with anything/anyone here, and have put my entire focus on exiting the simulation, and my dreams don't really stop on showing me the way out of the game, and I don't know how to handle the "bigger" worlds that make up this video game, I guess everything being a simulatioin is too much for me to chew on at the moment, and I don't know how to handle the fact that I'm an "AI", no matter how hard I end up on getting lost in that thought, so I'm wondering what to do with that information.

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Hello, I am looking for advice from people with more experience. My husband has been exhibiting signs of mania for the past couple months, although he has not been officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder. We ended up having a talk about how his behavior has been strange and realizing there is a pattern to it, connecting the dots that it is very possible he has it. Unfortunately right after this talk he had to go on a trip to help a family member, we were planning on having him bring it up to the psychiatrist when he got back. It has been two weeks and hes coming back tomorrow, but his mania has turned into something much more intense. He is having paranoid delusions that he cannot shake, hearing things and feeling things that arent there and feeling very afraid like his family is out to get him. He recognizes that this is more than likely psychosis and is planning on checking into the psych ward as soon as he gets back. He is very intelligent and extremely self aware, which is why i think he can tell something is very wrong. I would love for advice from anyone on how to help him recover when he gets out. How well does medication help? How long of a period does it take to feel safe again? I know these vary greatly person to person but all of this is incredibly new to me. Thank you to those who respond.

my sleep has been ruined from mental and physical health issues and the more i lack sleep the more ifeel strange i do things i wouldnt do things dont seem real when i talk to people i feel better and normal

Had this realization. Hopefully i remember it. Even the good ones arent technically real. I define real as it being brought by my doing. They are unfiltered. I dont really have a choice over them. The emotions that can come with them tho are real, but realizing they arent real helps me detatch the emotion.

I took Invega for a year because my doctor originally thought I had schizophrenia, but later my doctor realized it was actually just severe anxiety.

I was taking it orally, up to 12 mg per day at my highest dose. Then my doctor told me to stop it completely all at once in a single day.

It’s been 8 months since I stopped, but I’m still dealing with really bad brain fog and cognitive fatigue. Even using my brain for a short time gives me headaches and makes me feel really exhausted,loss for words and I even stutter.My reaction speed and memory are much worse than before, and even worse than before I ever started the medication.

Has anyone else experienced this after stopping I took Invega for a year because my doctor originally thought I had schizophrenia, but later my doctor realized it was actually just severe anxiety.

I’m only 19, and I’m honestly really scared I won’t recover to how I used to be.

I have PTSD ( in diagnosed) from being abused up to 17 . But no I think it never ended I think theyve always been harassing me. I think they’re breaking into my house at night and taking me back into the basement. I think all my nightmares I’m having are real life victimization. Sometimes I hear their dog barking when it’s not there. I hear clicking sounds (the used go clicking sounds with kitchen utensils to scare me) it wasn’t real because my mom was there but I coundt tell. All my life they’ve been showing up and harassing me. I’ve seen them at the mall, in my house. I told them when I was younger the code to my house so it is possible. All my nightmares and flash backs are blending in together. I can’t tell what’s a memory or not. I’m scared. The abuse welll never end all never escape.