u/NaiveDays

Trigger warning: eating disorders, smoking, body hate/dysmorphia

I matched with this guy on a dating app but it turns out that he’s the exact same type of Muslim that I am and it’s really rare for me to find someone who comes from my sect, in my area, and is open minded enough to have fun

So already I have my hopes up really high that we would one day marry, but as a chronic over thinker, I ended up rejecting him really early on because I was just having doubts and was not really feeling it in the romantic type way. But the thing is we still talk and still fuck occasionally even after it’s been 6 months since I’ve rejected him, we’re good friends.

But I’ve come to like him after getting to know him, and ngl he’s the best prospect that I can settle with and be my authentic self around with. But he’s been saying as payback for rejecting him he’ll only marry me if I get down to 130lbs. I’m 175lbs rn. I already have a fucked up relationship with food and my body and him saying that I’m going to the hottest person in my Muslim community if I’m down to 130 is really fucking with my head. I quit smoking but my relationship with food is now so fucked up that I consider having a couple smokes to be quite healthy compared to food. I end up binge eating and smoking to cope with the feeling of hate I get when I not look at myself.

Fuck him. And tbh the sex isn’t even that good. Dunno why I even bother. I guess I just feel lonely and he’s a really good friend. He understands the same shit that I go through being a Muslim in our sect.

Idk how but someone was there last night at 2 am or some shit and left me with all the fucking garbage and empty joint container on my basement steps. if ur gonna light one up at least have some common courtesy and drop a fry or two in the bag. Gawdamn

He works in the liquor store next door and I need an excuse to go in and talk to him. I first spoke yo him and asked if he had a lighter and we got talking. Yesterday I talked to him and I gave him the garbage key and today he gave it back to me and we talked then too. But I need another excuse to go and talk to himmmm what do I sayyyy

Of course you would only find out after you guys are married. Sexual compatibility is huge for a relationship, knowing and understanding that your partner treats and respects your body and cares if you feel good is also really important. What happens if that’s not the case? I personally think it would really hinder the relationship. You can ofc try and improve together but what if that doesn’t happen??

Hello! I’m set to start a 2 year after degree in education this fall. Unfortunately I went into my previous degree not knowing or being aware of many programs, since I was a first person to go to uni in my entire family. I’m hoping to change that this time around.

What’s some advice, programs or things I should know before going in? My biggest concerns are about practicums like how it all works. Alongside with job prospects like how to navigate getting employed before graduating etc.