u/Life-Excitement8217

Hi guys! Lol this post is for the ladies & isn’t a usual post that’s here . I was recently diagnosed with PCOS and the crap is ruining my life . Do any of you ladies have any Endo doctor recommendations . It’s only so much my pcp can do . I wish he could’ve just given me a referral .

Trying to figure out if I should just throw in the towel with trying to have a bond with my siblings . I am so tired . This shit is exhausting. Back story I’m in my late 20s. Youngest of 2 older siblings. Our mom passed away. Couple years ago. She was an addict.. her baby brother SA me & my dad SA my sister.

For years I never knew of what my dad did. Until I was maybe 20-21. It was a lot for me to unpack . It’s like who I knew as my dad was a lie. Shit broke my entire heart. I wanted justice for my sister but things didn’t go that way. I 100% was vocal about what my dad did even though he was my dad but I simply do not believe in that type of shit it’s literally SICK.

Years later I am just tired of getting the backlash from my siblings about my dad’s actions . There was a long period of time I didn’t even speak to him to try to prove to my sister that I believed her and that I wasn’t on “his side” that changed nothing. I’ve been in therapy for years and my therapist said it’s like my siblings resent me in a way simply bc of who my dad is and his actions.

Far as my uncle he was super close with my siblings. They didn’t believe me when I spoke up about what he did. Until this day everyone hid what my uncle did. My siblings were mad at me that I came out and said that my uncle SA me. Far as my dad everyone knew. As mentioned they both should’ve been under the f— jail if you ask me.

I’m just tired of it. My brother made it clear he never had a real relationship with me bc my dad. Also it’s pretty obvious to why I guess it’s hard for my sister to have a relationship with me. Me and her will be super close but then if her and my brother is speaking they won’t talk to me. If her and my brother are on bad terms they both would separately come and talk to me. I’m tired. I am assuming they both want a relationship with me privately but discuss things amongst each other . I was just a kid / not even born when a lot happened. I’m so tired of not being able to have a relationship with my siblings.

It doesn’t help that I look just like my dad… it’s hard not getting the closure you want or deserve. Breaks my heart that I didn’t get any nor did my sister. Our mom passed away thinking we both were lying . Or at least thats what I think .

I feel like I have no one…. I have close friends but there’s nothing like having a bond with my older siblings.. My brother thinks family therapy is stupid so we could never do therapy together.

I am also still grieving the loss of my mom , also being the man I thought I knew. Both of my parents are deceased and I would never get closure. There’s some resentment there…. A lot of it . Therapy hasn’t been helping honestly . Also my dad just passed this year. All this is just fucking stupid.

I hate that I feel like I can fix everything truth be told I’m tired…. And I can’t fix everything . I wish I could but I can’t . I wish a lot of things would’ve been different but I was just a kid. If I could’ve stopped things I would’ve . I’m so tired . What do I even do in this situation? Do I just give up on trying to have bonds with my siblings … idk what to do .

Edit : I’ve wanted a relationship with them so bad that it even caused some screwed up things to happen with me . I am all about proving I love them and want a bond with them but I feel used sometimes. I could be wrong . I helped my brother get a car one year and he f- completely over me and f- up my credit . He had the money just didn’t want to pay his car note. I forgave him bc I was just wanting to help my brother and I just still ofc wanted a relationship with him. Same for my sister I helped her by using my name for something and she left almost 1k balance on my name . It’s just hard . Trying to determine do they even f- like me??? I feel when my mom passed it’s like they didn’t really care for me after that. Originally they already didn’t bc of my dad but it got worse when my mom passed away. I know this shouldn’t bother me but it does…

Hi everyone , just sharing been almost a week since I’ve been on metformin. I can say everything that works for some may not work for others. Please don’t allow someone else experience stop you from trying whatever . Metformin has been great to me and it hasn’t even been a full week yet. We’re all here trying to find things that will help this horrible PCOS .

I literally have no cravings for sugar what so ever which is super odd ! Lol I am like a sugar monster . I literally have been eating once a day . Which before this I would eat so much and never feel full. Yes the medications do cause you to go to the restroom a lot but for me it’s not like horrible. The second day I took it , it was a bit annoying though because the cramps it caused was TERRIBLE! I still have been walking a lot and trying to eat as clean as possible.

I will give an update at the end of the month. I am also thinking about using the metformin with a GLP. I haven’t made up my mind yet. I will see after a month or so . If I want to do GLP. Good luck to everyone and hang in there . Things will get better for us 🫶🏽

When I say guy I’ve know him since we were teens. We’re both almost 30 now. He was someone I dated young . He also was my neighbor and his older brother and my older brother they’re best friends blah blah.

Fast forward We came back in contact due to my brother, dude has been constantly asking about me . I got back on IG after years and he even messaged me. He even commented on my picture and was calling me pretty or whatever anywho . We ended up having lunch together and we just talked about life etc . Pretty cool right? Yeah WRONG. He makes comments about women weight and I actually don’t like that.
He was scrolling on his phone and was like “I hate fat b—” and he kept saying it . Very weird .. so I was just like why are you taking about someone that literally isn’t bothering you. Plus why are you calling a woman that . Dude was like “because” .

2nd incident , we were on the phone and he was getting food at a drive through and was like “ew b— just be out here big ” so I then told him if he can’t respect women we don’t need to be friends or damn sure anything much more. He’s always been small like since we were kids.

I was super small when we were younger , my body has changed since then. I am actually trying to lose weight. I’ve never been this size before . Even if I was still smaller I don’t think it’s cool to shame people about their weight. I was also diagnosed with PCOS about 2 weeks ago. I’m just trying to understand like I’m damn sure not just super small and petite. I could lose a few , but dude you’re like claiming to be so attracted to me .. yet you’re saying shit like that. I’m not small.. so it’s like?

It’s super annoying and weird though, AIO. For wanting to cut him off? He’s been texting me all day and I haven’t responded because I don’t like disrespect . It’s like he’s lowkey throwing jabs at me in a sense. I think I’m just going to block him. Or am I just being sensitive?

Edit: as I mentioned my bestfriend of years she said I was being too sensitive and dramatic. I am very sensitive but I’m human I’m just more sensitive than some people. That was a part of why I posted this here. I wasn’t trying to stir the pot I am genuinely asking .

I think I’m pretty decent looking , I’m not a IG baddie lmao but I think am worth being more than a damn experiment. I am sick of females wanting to mess around with me just bc they’re curious.

Ever since me and my ex gf broke up it’s like I have been having a horrible dating life.💀

I run into some bad females , but then it’s like I’m starting to notice. A lot of females are just “curious ” and or want me for my money . Like no girly I will not spend my coins on you.

Example : one chick I met , super cool hella pretty btw! It all happened bc she posted something about a book reading buddy. We would text and hang out to read. She would be super flirtatious with me but only through text . I never paid it any mind at first until she got to a point where she wouldn’t stop. She would get mad about me not texting her back etc . So at this point I asked her .. like ?? Chick replied and said l was weird for asking her that and she said she never fw a female before but wanted to “try”. I was like wtf? Which followed by her saying women know what women like and she wanted head from another woman. Like yeah HARD PASS.

TS IS MAD ANNOYINNNNNG!! So ready for someone to come into my life and not waste my time 🙄😂

What are you guys doing for the bloating ? It seems like everything I eat makes me just bloat. Ever since finding out I have PCOS last week it actually has made me have little to no appetite . I’ve been super depressed honestly.

Also I am so sick of the hair under my chin , is the tea really something that helps? It’s like the hair comes back in 2 hours. It’s super draining honestly. My stomach is so huge , I literally almost cried when a client at a facility I work at asked me was I pregnant .

My neck is super super dark and it makes me so insecure I do not like wearing my hair up . I know what works for others doesn’t always work for everyone but I’m over this honestly. Crap is so draining.

I’ve been waiting on my doctor to reach out to me again but I haven’t heard from him yet , not sure what his plans are for me . Sending love to all of you , and wishing the best on everyone’s journey to fighting this PCOS💗