How or where do u find motivation to take care of yourself again?
I feel like I’ve never genuinely enjoyed exercise besides swimming. It was the only sport that ever made me feel good instead of miserable, but because of a skin condition I haven’t been able to do it since I was a kid. Since then, movement has always felt more like an obligation than something I naturally enjoy. Still, about a year and a half ago, something clicked in me. I started eating healthier, going on walks almost every day, and doing small workouts at home. Nothing extreme, but enough to make me feel proud of myself for once. I slowly lost weight, felt lighter, had more energy, and mentally I was in a much better place. But during the last 10 months or so, everything kind of fell apart again. I was finishing the last year of my studies, constantly stressed, mentally exhausted, overwhelmed with assignments and pressure, and little by little I stopped taking care of myself. I gained around 11kg back, stopped moving as much, started comfort eating again, and now I feel stuck in this cycle where I want to restart but can’t seem to find the motivation to actually do it. The problem is that I know how hard the beginning feels. I know results take time. And right now I don’t really have that “spark” or discipline people talk about. Part of me wants to lose weight, feel attractive again, get stronger, have more confidence, improve my mental health… but another part of me is just tired and overwhelmed and keeps thinking “what’s the point if I’ll fail again?” I also can’t afford a gym membership right now, so I have to do everything from home with basically no equipment. That makes it harder because I feel limited and I get bored easily. So I guess I’m asking: How do you restart after falling off completely? How do you find motivation when you genuinely don’t enjoy exercise that much? And if anyone has been in a similar situation — mentally exhausted, low confidence, trying to rebuild healthy habits from zero — what actually helped you stick with it? Any advice, routines, mindset changes, or even honest experiences would really help