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Hey y'all, I have my F2F with Piedmont coming up and I'm wondering if anyone has any tips or stories!

Does anyone know roughly how many people get a CJO at each F2F? Like would you say that the majority of people get it? I'm so nervous and wondering how selective they are at this stage

I was born with progressive hearing loss due to a rare genetic mutation. I had a normal life as a young child, then lost my hearing as I grew into a teenager and an adult. It was only when I left for college that I realized how difficult it is to survive with severe hearing loss. Wherever I go, I'm alone and nothing is built for me. I can't hear cars coming on busy streets. I struggle to make friends and job interviews are scary and difficult. My hearing aids don't fix things, I still can't hear normally and my speech recognition isn't very good. I feel so dejected because of this sometimes, almost as if it's illogical to keep trying. Just in general. Now I'm a 22 year old woman and I'm trying to build a career for myself. Thank you for letting me vent here even if it doesn't make much sense. I don't get to vent very much so it might be confusing. My dad who I inherited this mutation from isn't in my life anymore and I don't know anyone else who's HoH or deaf so it's really isolating. I feel like I should learn ASL but it's hard to find the time and mental capacity when I'm trying to balance classes and my career.

He discarded me this time because he believes that he is broken from a routine lidocaine injection in his mouth while the dentist was trying to remove teeth. He thinks it turned him into a genius at coding an AI and that he will be able to patent his technology and receive funding from the government for it. He's very fixated on this new project and has lost interest in most other topics. It's all he wants to discuss with anyone. This has already been going on for a month. I validated and supported him emotionally but apparently he is numb right now and has no libido or yearning (or empathy it seems) and therefore doesn't have much need for me. I apologize if my tone comes across as exasperated, this is the third time he's done this in the past year. I'm not sure I've seen him in a dissociated state for this long before (he often cycles through and starts feeling sadness, guilt, becomes hypersexual again etc and comes back with a dramatic entrance in the middle of the night). It's such a weird experience so I'm wondering if anyone can relate at all.