u/IllInterview9960

For the past two years, I've been afraid I might be gay. It started out of nowhere, and suddenly I had intense anxiety for two weeks.

I cried, etc. After that, the anxiety started to subside, and I explored and tested myself every day, spending more than an hour a day. After two years, I started taking citalopram, and since then, I have no attraction to girls at all. I only feel attracted to guys, which seems more fake than real. :( I feel uncomfortable around guys; I feel hot and sweaty, and I don't want to get close. :( Now I have no anxiety or fear; I just feel like I want to be with a guy. :( Whereas before the citalopram, I felt a little attraction to girls; I wanted to get close to them, etc. Now, nothing. :( I get erections when my girlfriend touches me, hugs me, kisses me, and cuddles me. I often initiate sex too, but I don't feel any pleasure. It's like it's mechanical and neutral.

For the past two years, I've been afraid I might be gay. It started out of nowhere, and suddenly I had intense anxiety for two weeks.

I cried, etc. After that, the anxiety started to subside, and I explored and tested myself every day, spending more than an hour a day. After two years, I started taking citalopram, and since then, I have no attraction to girls at all. I only feel attracted to guys, which seems more fake than real. :( I feel uncomfortable around guys; I feel hot and sweaty, and I don't want to get close. :( Now I have no anxiety or fear; I just feel like I want to be with a guy. :( Whereas before the citalopram, I felt a little attraction to girls; I wanted to get close to them, etc. Now, nothing. :( I get erections when my girlfriend touches me, hugs me, kisses me, and cuddles me. I often initiate sex too, but I don't feel any pleasure. It's like it's mechanical and neutral.

To begin with, I'm not homophobic; I respect all gay people, I have nothing against it. But for the past year, I've been obsessing over being gay, even though at 5 years old I wanted to kiss my best friend every time. I've watched straight porn since I was 8, and during my adolescence, I wanted to be with a girl. I was sad and jealous of not having a girlfriend while all my friends did. I met a girlfriend a year ago. I love spending time with her; I get erections just when we kiss and hug. :( I don't want to be gay; this fear just appeared out of nowhere.

For the past two years, I've been afraid I might be gay. It started out of nowhere, and suddenly I had intense anxiety for two weeks.

I cried, etc. After that, the anxiety started to subside, and I explored and tested myself every day, spending more than an hour a day. After two years, I started taking citalopram, and since then, I have no attraction to girls at all. I only feel attracted to guys, which seems more fake than real. :( I feel uncomfortable around guys; I feel hot and sweaty, and I don't want to get close. :( Now I have no anxiety or fear; I just feel like I want to be with a guy. :( Whereas before the citalopram, I felt a little attraction to girls; I wanted to get close to them, etc. Now, nothing. :( I get erections when my girlfriend touches me, hugs me, kisses me, and cuddles me. I often initiate sex too, but I don't feel any pleasure. It's like it's mechanical and neutral.