u/IceMosquito073

Butcher Hero: World Eater – My Hero Academia X Warhammer 40,000

Summary:

> Angron was a slave. Born and raised in gladiatorial pits for the entertainment of villains and criminals alike, and implanted with devices known as the Butcher’s Nails after he manifested a pain relieving quirk, fighting and killing was all he has ever known. Now rescued after a botched uprising by the Hero, Midnight, he walks the halls of UA High, pursuing a new purpose to fight, and a purpose other than fighting. > > *no pre-existing knowledge of Warhammer 40,000 is required, as I took a lot of steps to make sure all characters fit the worldbuilding and setting of My Hero Academia, so they might as well be OCs that you’re meeting for the first time. However, there will be a lot of inside jokes and references for my fellow Warhammer fans.

Was thinking of writing a fic based on a ship where the characters start dating, things get in the way and not really work out that well, and they break up on good terms (there's no backstabbing, or cheating, or heartbreak going on, they genuinely weren’t the right fit for each other and go their own ways while still bring friends/returning to being platonic friends).

Something bitter-sweet.

Which ship do you guys think would best fit that general outline? (Has to be canon compliant, so nothing involving Midoriya or Uraraka, as they're already with each other—ain't gonna ship them with anyone else).

E.g., the Dot-Com bubble of the 90's, the Housing market of the 08 crisis, and now with the AI bubble about to burst.

I know the theory and how it works, but afaik, it's about money and investments. You have large industries or markets going up and down or crashing, but *economy wide* failure, as far as my understanding of the theory goes, can mostly be explained by system-wide malinvestment through inflation and through artificial interest rates.

But how do single industries (the internet, housing, and now AI) cause the entire economy to grind to a hault when their bubbles burst?

I don’t pray often because I’m ADHD, so getting the motivation to pray more than once in a while isn’t really there.

Intellectually and rhetorically, I know this is fine and that I shouldn’t worry too much about that and the Gods themselves are fine with how I’m taking things.

But interms of feelings, I still feel like I’m not doing enough, not praying often, blah, blah, etc., etc.,

Does anyone have advice for how to overcome or fully get rid of the feelings? Or I it something thst never fully goes away?

So, a few days ago I made [this post on r/Autism about gender](https://www.reddit.com/r/autism/s/lbhCDmUz0P\], and a few people under it were saying that it sounded like I might be non-binary. And a close IRL friend who I showed the post with and told some other of me feelings about this to also said it sounded like I might be Non-Binary.

So I came here to ask for some second opinions and thoughts to bounce off of and help me figure things out for myself.

To give basically a run-down on everything:

So, I’m an autistic, ADHD man. I feel like a cis man, and my hobbies and interests all seem very man-coded (at least stereotypically) like wargaming, model collecting, an interest in military history, etc.,.

However, if I were to describe myself, even if I’m just talking to myself about myself, I never really describe myself as *masculine*. And wven when I try to use that adjective, it just *actively* makes me uncomfortable.

And it's not just for "toxic masculinity" and that stuff. The stuff most of us in our culture are bombarded with and some naturally assume masculinity is by default. I also feel uncomfortable with describing myself as "positive masculinity".

Like, I don’t feel like either kind at all and neither feel particularly aspirational.

Idk if that’s just me or if it's "part of my autism" or I-don't-know-how-to-phrase-it.

Another thing is that I’m pretty insecure about my body, but in a weird opposite direction than most. I’m 5'6, but sometimes I feel like I'm too tall, I have naturally broad and bulky shoulders, but I wish I had a smaller frame. I often worry about feeling like I'm too "imposing" a presence. I regularly shave my beard and everything below the waist because I feel like that body and facial hair looks animalistic and I like the smoothness.

I look at media, usually romance, or fantasy, e.g., Prince saving Princess, and I think "I wish I was her and that I had a stronger-and-taller-than-me girlfriend to just carry me in her arms and make me feel smaller, safe to be vulnerable, and protected.

I have had not just one, but 2 different times in my short 21 years alive where I have seriously questioned and debated if I was transgender, and the "aspirational gaze" of my "male gaze" (if that makes sense) was strangely directed towards the kind of men you see in Shoujo or even yaoi than the usual "Superman/Wolverine" type physique culture tends to rotate around.

Seems pretty long winded and disorganized stream of consciousness, I'm sorry.

I like to listen to music when engaging in my hobbies like Table-Top miniature painting, writing, and drawing. And hell, even going on walks and visualising the characters in my writing doing stuff in scenes so I can write it all down when I get home from said walk.

For an example, If I'm painting an Iron Warrior's mini for Warhammer 40,000, or writing a scene for my creative fiction writing set in a trench battle or something industrial like that, I will put something on like Dam Top by Jesper Kyd, Propaganda (Von Stroheim Theme) by Taku Iwasaki, Unshakable March by Cephei MC, Hell March by Frank Klepacki, or Polemos by Mick Gordon, to name a few examples from my playlist.

And other "themed" playlists for other hobbies and projects. And for some reason, I find it hard (but not necessarily impossible for me) to listen to music in any other way, like having "mood playlists" for how I'm feeling---I rarely if ever make playlists like that.

Anyone else find themselves doing that kind of thing with their hobbies? Like listening to Peer Gynt Suite No. 1 if you're a gardener or like going on nature hikes as another example?

So, I’m a cis man who feels pretty comfortable in his own skin and body, and my hobbies and interests all seem very man-coded (at least stereotypically) like wargaming, model collecting, an interest in military history, etc.,.

However, if I were to describe myself, even if I’m just talking to myself about myself, I never really describe myself as *masculine*. And wven when I try to use that adjective, it just *actively* makes me uncomfortable.

And it's not just for "toxic masculinity" and that stuff. The stuff most of us in our culture are bombarded with and some naturally assume masculinity is by default. I also feel uncomfortable with describing myself as "positive masculinity".

Like, I don’t feel like either kind at all and neither feel particularly aspirational.

Idk if that’s just me or if it's "part of my autism" or I-don't-know-how-to-phrase-it.

Anyone else feel that way about their sex and/or about their gender identity?