My mental health is worse than I realized and I hate it so much
I didn't realize until today that I'm more burnt out and detached from everything than I realized. Usually I doomscroll when I get home from work until I go to bed but even that has become boring and unfulfilling (not that it truly is in the first place). I have TMJ so it's common for me to clench my jaw at night but recently I wake up with pain in my jaw, cheeks, and behind my eyes. Thats how I knew things were bad. Then food just all tastes off. Like nothing is satisfying. It's bad enough I struggle to eat but this makes it worse.
Work is even so difficult right now. It doesn't help that this time of year hits everyone with exhaustion (I work in higher ed and summer break starts next week.) I have little to no motivation to work. I keep up with the basics and time sensitive tasks but otherwise all I do is scroll on twitter and play a couple mobile games. I hate myself for that. I want to do something else with my time but idk what to do. I don't know how to feel better or what to do. I really just want someone to take care of me. Hug me while I cry. Tell me everything will be ok. Tell me that I'm not a horrible person.