So me 17F I have really bad communication skills n bad social anxiety and the thought of a interview terrifies me. I have applied for jobs and got interviews but never actually went in. I’m so nervous I never know what to say besides I’m a good worker and I can work part time. Also where could I apply besides McDonald’s at 17 that will actually hire me?
So for starters my “bf” M20 and me F18 have been a thing for a little over 6 months now. He still hasn’t officially asked me out but does everything you’d do in a relationship? Loyalty, hanging out everyday, introducing me to family, friends, brings me on dates, etc. I just don’t know if how I feel is valid and would like a second opinion on the situation.
We started off so well when we first met everything felt perfect like a fever dream but went downhill pretty fast. We started arguing 2 months in and it feels never ending from that point on. I won’t even lie I can be a pain sometimes and I do get a attitude. But he belittles me so much and every argument I start he feels the need to finish it and vise versa. It feels pretty toxic and isolating being with him. When I was single I was extremely sad and heartbroken from my past but I feel this relationship sometimes wasn’t the right decision either. And if I had just stayed single it would’ve been easier for me and my mental health. Another thing I’d like to mention is every single hang out is so boring and all he wants to do is lay in bed and do something sexual or him just scrolling on his phone while I lay next to him. I’m not saying we have to go out or do something every single time we see each other but maybe even planning a cute date or something nice to make the “spark” come back alive. He used to call me all the time and be excited to see me and talk to me and I feel like all we do is fight and he puts no effort or emotional availability out for me. I sometimes find myself even dozing off thinking about how life would be if I was talking to someone else or being single and I feel guilty for it. Not to mention my parents don’t even think he’s the one for me and they don’t like him at all. I just don’t know what to do if I should stay with him because I do love him I’m just not even sure if he loves me as much as he says he does. I’m really bad at expressing my feelings to people in person unless it’s through a text or on the phone. What should I do?
TL;DR
So for starters my “bf” M20 and me F18 have been a thing for a little over 6 months now. He still hasn’t officially asked me out but does everything you’d do in a relationship? Loyalty, hanging out everyday, introducing me to family, friends, brings me on dates, etc. I just don’t know if how I feel is valid and would like a second opinion on the situation.
We started off so well when we first met everything felt perfect like a fever dream but went downhill pretty fast. We started arguing 2 months in and it feels never ending from that point on. I won’t even lie I can be a pain sometimes and I do get a attitude. But he belittles me so much and every argument I start he feels the need to finish it and vise versa. It feels pretty toxic and isolating being with him. When I was single I was extremely sad and heartbroken from my past but I feel this relationship sometimes wasn’t the right decision either. And if I had just stayed single it would’ve been easier for me and my mental health. Another thing I’d like to mention is every single hang out is so boring and all he wants to do is lay in bed and do something sexual or him just scrolling on his phone while I lay next to him. I’m not saying we have to go out or do something every single time we see each other but maybe even planning a cute date or something nice to make the “spark” come back alive. He used to call me all the time and be excited to see me and talk to me and I feel like all we do is fight and he puts no effort or emotional availability out for me. I sometimes find myself even dozing off thinking about how life would be if I was talking to someone else or being single and I feel guilty for it. Not to mention my parents don’t even think he’s the one for me and they don’t like him at all. I just don’t know what to do if I should stay with him because I do love him I’m just not even sure if he loves me as much as he says he does. I’m really bad at expressing my feelings to people in person unless it’s through a text or on the phone. What should I do?
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Idk if this is just me but I hear the Your the one that should’ve got away beat in the background of special to you anyone else?