u/ExternalExerciser

Tl;dr I had a panic attack in front of my girlfriend and now I can’t stop worrying she sees me differently

I had a complete meltdown in front of my girlfriend recently, and I can’t stop replaying it in my head.

I get what I think are panic attacks from time to time. Usually I can feel them coming on early enough that I can calm myself down before they fully hit. It’s something I’ve learned to manage privately.

The other day, though, everything lined up in the worst possible way. We were arguing in the car, I was driving, and we were already late to an event. By the time I parked, I could feel the panic starting. I was trying to stay focused and push through it, but while I was sitting there trying to calm myself down, my girlfriend, who was already pissed off with me, got out of the car and left me to go to the event.

The second she left, I completely lost it.

She realized something was wrong once she got to the venue and came back for me, but by that point I was already in a full panic attack. And honestly, whatever she was saying in that moment just made it worse. I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was ashamed of me, or angry at me, or disgusted by what she was seeing.

That made the panic spiral even harder, and it turned into one of the worst attacks I’ve ever had.

She ended up taking me home and dropping me off. I slept for a while, and when I woke up we talked about it. She told me nothing has changed and that we’re okay.

But I can’t stop worrying that her view of me changed anyway.

She saw me crying uncontrollably like a terrified kid. She heard me saying things like “you sound mean” because her tone felt harsh, and “you’re not giving me patience.” I had absolutely no filter in that moment and just said everything I was feeling.

Even though she says we’re fine, I can’t stop feeling embarrassed and wondering if she sees me differently now.

Has anyone else ever had something like this happen with a partner? And if so, did that fear ever go away?

I had a anxiety attack in front of my girlfriend and now I can’t stop worrying she sees me differently

I had a complete meltdown in front of my girlfriend recently, and I can’t stop replaying it in my head.

I get what I think are panic attacks from time to time. Usually I can feel them coming on early enough that I can calm myself down before they fully hit. It’s something I’ve learned to manage privately.

The other day, though, everything lined up in the worst possible way. We were arguing in the car, I was driving, and we were already late to an event. By the time I parked, I could feel the panic starting. I was trying to stay focused and push through it, but while I was sitting there trying to calm myself down, my girlfriend, who was already pissed off with me, got out of the car and left me to go to the event.

The second she left, I completely lost it.

She realized something was wrong once she got to the venue and came back for me, but by that point I was already in a full panic attack. And honestly, whatever she was saying in that moment just made it worse. I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was ashamed of me, or angry at me, or disgusted by what she was seeing.

That made the panic spiral even harder, and it turned into one of the worst attacks I’ve ever had.

She ended up taking me home and dropping me off. I slept for a while, and when I woke up we talked about it. She told me nothing has changed and that we’re okay.

But I can’t stop worrying that her view of me changed anyway.

She saw me crying uncontrollably like a terrified kid. She heard me saying things like “you sound mean” because her tone felt harsh, and “you’re not giving me patience.” I had absolutely no filter in that moment and just said everything I was feeling.

Even though she says we’re fine, I can’t stop feeling embarrassed and wondering if she sees me differently now.

Has anyone else ever had something like this happen with a partner? And if so, did that fear ever go away?

I had a anxiety attack in front of my girlfriend and now I can’t stop worrying she sees me differently

I had a complete meltdown in front of my girlfriend recently, and I can’t stop replaying it in my head.

I get what I think are panic attacks from time to time. Usually I can feel them coming on early enough that I can calm myself down before they fully hit. It’s something I’ve learned to manage privately.

The other day, though, everything lined up in the worst possible way. We were arguing in the car, I was driving, and we were already late to an event. By the time I parked, I could feel the panic starting. I was trying to stay focused and push through it, but while I was sitting there trying to calm myself down, my girlfriend, who was already pissed off with me, got out of the car and left me to go to the event.

The second she left, I completely lost it.

She realized something was wrong once she got to the venue and came back for me, but by that point I was already in a full panic attack. And honestly, whatever she was saying in that moment just made it worse. I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was ashamed of me, or angry at me, or disgusted by what she was seeing.

That made the panic spiral even harder, and it turned into one of the worst attacks I’ve ever had.

She ended up taking me home and dropping me off. I slept for a while, and when I woke up we talked about it. She told me nothing has changed and that we’re okay.

But I can’t stop worrying that her view of me changed anyway.

She saw me crying uncontrollably like a terrified kid. She heard me saying things like “you sound mean” because her tone felt harsh, and “you’re not giving me patience.” I had absolutely no filter in that moment and just said everything I was feeling.

Even though she says we’re fine, I can’t stop feeling embarrassed and wondering if she sees me differently now.

Has anyone else ever had something like this happen with a partner? And if so, did that fear ever go away?

I had a anxiety attack in front of my girlfriend and now I can’t stop worrying she sees me differently

I had a complete meltdown in front of my girlfriend recently, and I can’t stop replaying it in my head.

I get what I think are panic attacks from time to time. Usually I can feel them coming on early enough that I can calm myself down before they fully hit. It’s something I’ve learned to manage privately.

The other day, though, everything lined up in the worst possible way. We were arguing in the car, I was driving, and we were already late to an event. By the time I parked, I could feel the panic starting. I was trying to stay focused and push through it, but while I was sitting there trying to calm myself down, my girlfriend, who was already pissed off with me, got out of the car and left me to go to the event.

The second she left, I completely lost it.

She realized something was wrong once she got to the venue and came back for me, but by that point I was already in a full panic attack. And honestly, whatever she was saying in that moment just made it worse. I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was ashamed of me, or angry at me, or disgusted by what she was seeing.

That made the panic spiral even harder, and it turned into one of the worst attacks I’ve ever had.

She ended up taking me home and dropping me off. I slept for a while, and when I woke up we talked about it. She told me nothing has changed and that we’re okay.

But I can’t stop worrying that her view of me changed anyway.

She saw me crying uncontrollably like a terrified kid. She heard me saying things like “you sound mean” because her tone felt harsh, and “you’re not giving me patience.” I had absolutely no filter in that moment and just said everything I was feeling.

Even though she says we’re fine, I can’t stop feeling embarrassed and wondering if she sees me differently now.

Has anyone else ever had something like this happen with a partner? And if so, did that fear ever go away?