u/Evening_Caramel8955

Hi all :) just seeking some advice or input. I’m a 24 year-old girl, feeling super lost. Very cliche, I know haha.

I’ve been in therapy since I was 19 because of childhood trauma and relationship issues. One thing we’ve really worked on is my vulnerability and sustaining friendships — as it’s hard for me to feel comfortable and it tends to cause a rift in a new friendship.

I’ve been really focusing on myself, doing the whole practice in the mirror thing, journaling about it, even practicing different scenarios where I could make a new friend with my fiancé. (He’s a saint and I tear up just thinking how kind he is to help me.)

But something I’m really struggling with is the older I’m getting, the more standoffish women tend to be with me. I’m not entirely girly (I wish I was) I’m private (people know I’m engaged and basic stuff, I’m just not sharing family secrets) or super into fashion (although I’m trying) and not very touchy. Some stuff happened and I only like my fiancé to touch me, and I definitely don’t touch other people.

I don’t use endearing pet names or over step boundaries. If I have, I tried really hard to be self aware of it. I’m just relaxed, I always say hello and ask how their day is, did they do anything fun over the weekend. But no one ever asks me back, or greets me, or invites me to lunch.

If there’s an off chance I do get invited, I try my best to be engaging in the conversation (not in an overbearing way, just chiming in like the rest of the table does) and just random small talk. But I always get the feeling that I’m just annoying them, hell borderline exhausting them.

There been some chatters that I dress weird (jeans and a nice top that is not revealing), I’m not funny, and how they don’t know how I landed my fiancé.

I’m finding it so difficult to make female friendships and honestly, it makes me sad. In high school and college (before we all moved) I had steady friendships that I look so fondly on. I’m trying really hard to fit the status quote, but I’m just starting to feel so defeated!

It’s embarrassing to admit the difference in the amount of friendships between my fiancé and I — and they’re all close! They text and call everyday, know everything about one another, they love each.

I think about my wedding and how I had to admit I was so ashamed I wouldn’t have enough bridesmaids to match his groomsmen. We decided to elope.

I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong, and how I can be better. It just sucks and I just wish I had a group of girls to get dinner with! Or even FaceTime while I clean the house or run errands. It just sounds so silly, but damn does it kill my heart.

Anyways, selfishly I hope someone can relate, just let me know it’s not so lonely. Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you! :)

I’m sure we all see the posts of comparing Coachella crowds to Stagecoaches crowds. From why I’ve seen and partake in, Coachella crowds are more lowkey; everyone is off something, high and in a happy mental state. Aka uppers.

However, everything I’m seeing from stagecoach is the exact opposite. Smaller venue, smaller crowd, yet more arrests and fights? I wish I could let them know that if they threw in a gram of our girl Molly with the 7 beers they’ve had in under 2 hours, they’d be in a good mood instead of aggressive.

Anyways, i just saw a video of a young girl explaining that a mother and her son punched her in the face/head after the husband tried bullying (pushing and shoving her) the girl out of her spot in the crowd. The girl was just standing there, asked not to be pushed and got molly rocked TWICE.

I’ve seen so many videos of people getting in verbal disagreements and full on fist fights at the barricade.

Maybe it’s just me…but I can’t imagine spending that much money to cause a huge disruption: especially with so much on the line! And it seems like that’s the census for this year. The crowd is aggressive, angry, and annoyed by the weather conditions. I can’t tell you how many videos I’ve seen threatening to sue Stagecoach for “canceling” the show or that “the wind won’t even affect you! And it’s not even *that* dusty.” Even saw someone say “who cares if a light fell on a girl because of the wind!? She didn’t die and at least she got to see john summit!” I’ve seen so many people honestly give up trying to reason with stagecoachers. I don’t mean this disrespectfully, but I’ve never seen a group of people who REFUSE understanding if it isn’t benefiting them.

Shits annoying, it SUCCCCCKSSSSS that stagecoach had to cancel for those 45 minutes but thinking you can sue them? And yes, I’ve seen videos of people ranting and stating that it’s illegal for them to cancel because of harsh weather conditions and if they KNEW they would open again everyone deserves a refund for the entire night/day? I just…

Phew….the tone deaf, roid fueled environment is not something I want to be a part of. Just super grateful for you peeps for being “*normal*”,accepting, and PLUR.