Trying to figure out how to tell my sponsor about me tripping
I’m coming off a beautiful and introspective trip. Lots of thoughts about how I just want to do me and things will fall into place. Drinking has no place in my story anymore because it disconnects me from the world and I don’t want that anymore, and how this world is so full of these weird social cliques like we’re all in an 80s high school movie. There’s so much judgment about what is okay in recovery and following some strict set of guidelines, but I’m just going to do me and continue to grow and follow my own journey. It was also a really good place of creative growth for me as a musician. Plus I watched brother bear with the Grateful Dead live in Vineta 1972 over it and that was absolutely mind blowing. But anywhooo I’m meeting with my sponsor on Wednesday and I figure I might as well tell him that I tripped and I mean I don’t think it’ll be a big deal bc me and him are pretty similar in age (me late 20s and he’s early 30s) plus we were close friends and roommates for a year before he became my sponsor, but I’m still super anxious to talk about it and I just needed to vent. I know this was good for my growth and I think I’m done with AA. I’m going to work the steps because I think I’m their own way they’re a good framework for spiritual growth and my home group is a good social gathering space for people who don’t drink that are close to my age but I’m done with the dogma. The book has some wisdom in it but it’s not some religious text. Thanks for reading and enjoy your journey!