I (26f) have four months left on my lease with cheating bf (23m). How to cope?
Stuck in my apartment with my cheating bf for four more months. We have a lease together. Can’t afford to break the lease, and he would have to reapply and qualify for the apt on his own which is absolutely not going to happen
I’ve been with him three years and he’s cheated on me throughout the whole relationship. Sexting onlyfans girls countless times, sending them hundreds of dollars while not helping me with rent, and also has never even bought me flowers, or anything nice really. But for some reason, sending money to onlyfans girls is so fucking easy. Rather than caring for his girlfriend who’s dedicated three years and sacrificed so fucking much for him
And then he’s also physically cheated and had sex with a woman TWICE. on two separate occasions. Raw. Got her pregnant. Didn’t tell me and never intended to tell me, I found out through deleted messages. Had sex with me after and didn’t care or consider STIs. When I mentioned stds to him, he said he asked her and it “didn’t seem like she’d lie”
Im so pathetic and loved him so hard that I stayed with him. I found he was messaging women on this app that live in our city (for the numerous time), and also once again sending girls on OF money, I said I was gonna leave. He deleted his OF and this app’s accounts right in that moment. The next day he redownloaded this app and made the acc and messaged a girl in our city that he wanted to have sex with her. And just yesterday, sent an OF girl $150+ meanwhile he hadn’t helped me with rent!!!
Also he was using MY car. He was going some gig work, and I found that about a week ago, he went to a motel to have sex with a p*********. He didn’t go through with it probably bc he didn’t have enough money. I highly doubt I was even considered in his choice
This isn’t even everything he’s done to me. I know I sound so fucking stupid and I actually am. Sometimes I think I have a disability bc I’m audhd and I gave him the benefit of the doubt too many fucking times. And because I have never had romantic feelings for anyone - not in elementary, middle, high school or college. He’s the first. The first man I ever liked and then loved. So I stayed for too long. But I’m ready to seriously leave. I know he’s never going to change and I wish I realized it sooner. But I have four months on the lease with him, and I don’t know what to do with myself. I am at work right now and I just want to scream. I’m so full of rage and anger. The things he’s done is so vile. It’s not even a full list, doesn’t even include the things he’s done to ME. i want this to be over. I’m tired of this push and pull. I don’t want to be around him for another four months.