u/Desperate_Flower2494

Porn has consumed my life for years. Eversince I was about 9 years old, I already started watching porn and masturbating to it. I've had enough, but it's so hard to quit.

I'm currently unfollowing all the porn creators I follwed here on my account. I'm also leaving the subreddits related to porn. The 100GB porn file I have is gone.

I really hope I don't regret this. My other attempts were unsuccessful because I didn't take it away completely, but now I am. I hope I quit for good :(

The school vacation in my country started a month ago, and I had two months to get myself together. I promised myself that I would finally take care of myself once and for all. That I would do what's best for my body and health. That my peers would finally see the best version of myself.

As I was starting to do so, a series of adversities hit me. It was hard—like really hard. There's this saying that goes around that says "boys don't cry," but I honestly can't help it. I don't remember a single night wherein i didn't cry this school vacation. This ultimately led to me stopping all of my progress, and now I'm back to zero. The two months I could've used to improve myself turned one month in a blink.

It's exactly 39 days since school starts, 38 tomorrow because I'm writing this at night here. Is it too late to ever start again? I would appreciate those who give their insight—this vacation has took a toll on me, both physically and mentally, so I just want to finish what I have promised to myself a month ago.

As the flair said, tanong lang.

Nalalapit na kasi ang mga college entrance exams. Now, ang naririnig ko kasi, hanapin talaga ang mga accountant—lalo na CPA—sa kahit anong business.

Hindi ko strength ang Math pero kinakaya naman sa tiyaga.

student here. sobrang bilis dumaan ng mga araw. nung nag start ang bakasyon, i attempted to improve myself—both mentally and physically—pero biglang sunod-sunod ang mga problema which eventually led to it being thrown out of the window. some of it were caused by me naman and i take accountability for it. naka move on na ako, pero parang may random waves of sadness talaga akong nararamdaman. ayoko naman maging labeled as "oa" by others kasi mas marami pa ang hinaharap na problems ng iba, pero medyo nakaka discourage rin. sila ngayong bakasyon sobrang productive, ako parang nabubulok na lang talaga eh. nakakayamot din kasi 'yung mga dati kong interests, hindi na rin ako interesado, so parang wala na rin akong magawa. it's super discouraging—wala na atang gabing hindi ako umiyak, wala na ata akong araw na masaya. sobrang delayed ng buhay ko, idk if i could even take a glimpse sa nga pangarap ko. kung pwede lang talaga magpakamatay eh, kaso I'm a religious person so something is stopping me from within + takot ako na magsurvive.