u/Defiant-Elevator9472

I hated children for a long time and categorically did not want them, but something changed.

I'm 18, I'm a lesbian, and I don't know if I want children. My friends, like, my age, would like children, but I... don't? I love my little brother, I love watching him grow up and teaching him, but I had to raise him when I was little, and because he has a mental retardation, it's hard for me. I had a difficult childhood myself, with mental health issues, so I don't think even at 30 I'd dare take such a step. I want to live completely on my own when he grows up. Maybe I'll have one child, I don't know... I've always wanted a big, strong family, but I don't even know what that means.

Upd: Thank you so much for your answers! I really felt like there was a clock hanging over me, or if I turned 25, everything would turn into pumpkins like in Cinderella, meaning I'd be too old for children. You've truly reassured me that I still have time.

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u/Defiant-Elevator9472 — 11 days ago

I hated children for a long time and categorically did not want them, but something changed.

I'm 18, I'm a lesbian, and I don't know if I want children. My friends, like, my age, would like children, but I... don't? I love my little brother, I love watching him grow up and teaching him, but I had to raise him when I was little, and because he has a mental retardation, it's hard for me. I had a difficult childhood myself, with mental health issues, so I don't think even at 30 I'd dare take such a step. I want to live completely on my own when he grows up. Maybe I'll have one child, I don't know... I've always wanted a big, strong family, but I don't even know what that means.

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u/Defiant-Elevator9472 — 11 days ago
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When my friends talk about the fun times they had with their parents or how supportive they are, my heart sinks. What did I do to have such a family?..

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u/Defiant-Elevator9472 — 12 days ago

I'm just tired of fighting all this. I'm such a fool, I should've gone to the police earlier, but I was afraid. Now I'm 18 and it won't be treated as pedophilia. I'm tired. I don't even try to move out of this house because I don't have the strength and money to take care of myself.

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u/Defiant-Elevator9472 — 14 days ago