I really enjoy her as a person, but not romantically
Hi everyone, I am 25F barista & one of my regulars followed me on insta a month and a half ago or so & I followed her back. I always thought she seemed cool & is so stunning. A few weeks later she messaged me saying she was too nervous to say anything in person but that she thought I was very attractive & would love to get to know me. My ex had just broken up with me a couple weeks prior but we had only dated for a couple months tho the day before I had found out she lied about stuff to me while we were dating so I was hardcore crashing out. I told my regular that I thought she was beautiful & that I would love that, but that I’m a bit fragile at the moment so if she’s still interested in getting to know me I’d want to take things slow. Also soon into us texting & going on dates I had mentioned I am demisexual as well. She has been so incredibly kind & understanding & I haven’t felt any pressure from her. We’ve gone out/ hung out a total of 5 times in the last week & a half. I think she’s really cool & I feel pretty comfortable with her for how short of a time I’ve known her. I genuinely enjoy being around her. We haven’t been physical at all. She’s letting me set the pace. when it comes to physical intimacy in anyway there’s a switch that happens when I feel ready whether that’s to kiss & eventually have sex & the pacing can be different for each person. (I’ve only had two girlfriends) my first girlfriend we started dated right about the time I realized I’m probably demisexual & I communicated that to her. She was also very understanding & let me set the pace. We would cuddle & hold hands but we didn’t kiss til our fourth date. My recent ex we kissed on our first date & that was me initiating both times. & with my first girlfriend even if I knew I wasn’t ready to kiss her I still knew I wanted to kiss her if that makes sense. But with this girl when we’re hanging out I have a great time but I don’t think about any of the physical stuff or think that I see it romantically. I also have OCD & think I can be avoidant so I don’t want to just self sabotage but also I feel like I see it as more platonic. I hate to rush myself when it comes to this stuff, but I also feel so bad for feeling like I wasted someone’s time who I know is interested in me. I kinda feel like I should maybe end things with this girl but i don’t know exactly what to say cause i genuinely feel so awful, but I’m also questioning myself & thinking should I give myself more time