u/CityReindeer

When i was like 8-13 , i used to be taller than the resr, but it's like i never grew after that, i remember my plates closed really early, but i did outgrow my.predicted height, but only by an inch.

Curious if it was others experience too.

I’m 22, stuck at my parents house, and exhausted from a cycle of seasonal gigs. I am a truck mechanic by trade, but i hate that job and it makes me angry i wasted years of my life for nothing to get "educated".

Now, I’m stuck in a hole. I don’t allow myself to date or have hobbies because I feel like I don’t deserve good things when I can’t even do the bare minimum. I’ve distanced myself from my friends out of embarrassment, and even from my brother, he’s 25, married, and recently bought a house.

I’m happy for him, but the jealousy makes it hard to even send a text. I avoid my relatives because I never have any "good news" to share.

I always believed things would just work themselves out, but I’m losing hope. I’m losing sleep over this. I just want a job and my own place so I can finally feel like I’m allowed to live my life again.

Please what do i do?

I can't stand it man, why am i such a fucking idiot? Like what is it about me or my habits that made me stupid?

I don't get it, i geniunely have never met someone like this, i don't even know how to describe what emotion something makes me feel, i'll just end up speaking in circles until i realize i don't know how i feel.

It would be fine if it didn't have such big affect on my employment/career, i went into a trade i turned out to hate and got burned out on it. I worked from 18 to 22 as an truck mechanic, now i'm back at my parents to try figure out my next step.

But what is there to figure out? Either go work or school, but i still can't seem to pick, I've done some College entry exam tests online and i just can't, i'm far too stupid for school.

I keep reading people with Master's are struggling for jobs, what am i supposed to do? I'm already shit at being a mechanic, i have nothing to give to the market.

Am i just supposed to become homeless? I can't keep living at my parents for too long, i'm too old for that, but i can't get any permanent job with my skills, education and experience.

I hate that my close relatives lied to me and told me i'm not stupid when i was young, i already struggled in school then, i would practice for exams for hours and hours, and the result? Barely better than doing it without any preperation.

I always had hope in life, i was too stupid to trust the "things tend to work themselves out".

I just feel things never stop getting worse, when i was getting burnt out of my job, i thought "man it can't get worse than this", life always finds a way.

I've completely even dropped out of dating, i can't imagine why anyone at this age would want an relationship with someone who is living at their parents with no certain plan, i certainly wouldn't date a man like that if i was a woman

I don't know what to do, i'm running out of options unless you count working at McDonalds or Amazon.

I definitely have been yearning to get out and into my own place, as i have very protective and "babying" parents who treat me like their bestfriend.

I am just not sure if it's worth the debt, i would be going into about $30,000 of debt since i doubt i can find a part time job, i'd work the summers definitely.

I'm curious to hear from other people who moved out due to school, if they think i should just stick at home for about 4 years or move out.

I've had about 5 friends over my life time and 2 of them i hung out with often but as we grew older and drinking got involved, i dropped out of the group at about 15 as i don't like drunk people due to how my parents treated me when they were drunk.

From 15 till now, i have not had any actual friends, i've had co workers, but not actual friends.

I'm about to graduate in a month and in the 3,5 years of school i made no friends, but i can't blame anything but myself as i didn't take part in the school events.

I think i'm pretty boring to the normal person, as i don't like drinking, partying, clubbing or any of that, which seems to be the number one thing people enjoy usually.

I miss the days when a party meant getting soda and chips and watching a movie or playing videogames.

I do enjoy my alone time, but sometimes i really wish i had someone to go maybe on a bicycle ride with and talk.

Whenever i do something i enjoy and think, man this is awesome, i can't help but think how much more enjoyable it could be with someone, as i feel like the memory doesn't matter since no one else apart from me will ever know about it.

Thank you for reading, i appreciate any tips or help you give me.

I'm quite useless as far as my value to a company which is kinda the most important thing in life so i'm looking for what to do?

I'm 24 and have worked seasonal jobs all my life, tire shop, server, Christmas elf because im short and cleaning.

I wish i could just restart since i've kind of fucked everything up, but i can't so i'm trying to figure out what career to go for to get an actual full time job, i hate worrying about what job can i get next to keep paying the bills.

This was by some idiot college student but man, baffled me, like what the fuck do u mean?

He said i walk too "confident" as a short guy and it looks like im compensating.

I genuinely just have felt good recently and don't feel the need to walk head down, but like man why would anyone say that.

This is just a stupid rant post, just annoyed me like, i was just existing... Eh, anyways...