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I’ve just been officially diagnosed after years of “what if’s”. It’s been a huge mess in my mind filled with shame,guilty,insecurity etc. it’s truly been eating me.

I was bawling all day scared to tell my husband. When I finally did he just gave me a confused look like “what? I could’ve told you that lol” in a joking way. He then asked if I wanted to talk about it and when I said no he reassured me he was there for me and was extra sweet the whole day. I haven’t brought it up and he hasn’t and I don’t really want to with him yet. Things have been normal

I then today told my close friend/ co worker after she saw how distressed I was all day. It took forever to admit it and I couldn’t even say the words at first. Once I told her the diagnosis and how ashamed I was she just said “oh? Why? Idk, I thought I was for the longest time. It was just PMDD Lol. We’re just girls. Do you want my Zofran?”. We then talked about our issues before the diagnosis and I felt so much closer to her. She had a cvs list full of issues she’s working through with her psych. Something I never would’ve guessed.

Even with all of this positivity/neutrality… I still feel so ashamed. I don’t know why and I know there’s a stigma but I just can’t shake it . I told my psych and she just reassured me And said “maybe it’s my line of work but..it’s much more common than you think. I’ve heard my clients call it ‘locking in’ before they got diagnosed” I haven’t laughed that hard in so long tbh lol.

What finally got you to get over the guilt? How did your support group (friends/family) react?

I’ve been seeing it all over my feeds across multiple platforms lately and it’s definitely becoming almost an aesthetic. However, some of the comments are actually pretty positive toward them and I just want to know if it’s worth the try?

I’m not a smoker but am those people that usually need another cup of coffee around afternoon and get a crash by noon. What’s everyone’s experience with it? And what are the benefits rather than just having a coffee with some vitamins?

Title sums it. We have all had experiences of people trying to detour us from our life plans. It’s usually a monologue talking about their own experience with a hint of judgment disguised as advice.

But…like for what reason? Where does the audacity stem from?

I had an encounter today that made me question it. My colleague was talking about how she got off birth control. I asked “oh you trying for kids with your husband”? She simple answered no and that she just wanted to try ovulation tracking/ condoms etc and didn’t want kids

And yall know what I replied with? I said “okay dinks love that” and that was it.

Like. It’s that simple to respect someone’s life choice. Like obviously if someone I know is cheating or doing crack ima say something. For personal choices like home owing, marriage, reproduction? Hell no. Like who tf am I to do that? God? Jesus? Nope

If anyone knows or has maybe talked about it with a therapist/professional please let me know the reason. Like I literally just can’t relate on pushing someone to do something they don’t want?? Especially about your sex life and what comes from that?

I increased my dosage I say about 2 weeks ago from 150 to 300mg while on 200mg Zoloft and Im feeling so intensely about so many things.

The first few days I was an anxious mess but tbh I expected that, I took off a day of work and just relaxed. So that wasn’t the issue. A week goes by and while my anxiety is gone I just feel so angry? Initially I thought it was my period but I finished a few days ago and my agitation is through the roof.

Im a huge cryer and sad girl so I’m not use to feeling such angry emotions instead ( kinda sounds dumb but I hope someone understands). I’ve read it is a side effect but less common . The only side effects that were bad when I started/increased Zoloft was nausea and headaches

If you had experience with intense emotions on bupro I’d love to hear please!