u/CherryCherrybonbon_

I wanna say I do have a psychiatrist, I just am in between wait and. Last appointment. I wanna talk all.

I have had moments of spacing out, but this is the first time it's lasted for multiple days where I can't shake it. My emotions feel so drowned, when I realize I've stopped going and get myself up again I start doing things that don't make sense.
I had been sitting when I realized I hadn't eaten for a long while, and when I got up to eat after the first few bites I had started walking to somewhere outside and I was then sitting beside a tree instead of eating i was just rechewing the same bite over and over while smashing the rest in my hand.

I am so enraged by the fact that no matter what happens therapy gets the credit and you get the blame.
I was talking to a therapist in a non therapy context, and when I described my feeling of being emotionally on a tight rope and about to be knocked over at any moment she told me...
"I can tell you've been in therapy :smile:"
I did NOT learn that in therapy, what, describing my issue??? Do you seriously think using a metaphor to describe your issue is a therapy learned skill???
This was after I told her I got nothing out of my four therapists and two psychiatrists.
God, it made me so mad.

And then when I describe any progress I made out of therapy, people deny it with any excuse possible.

"It's just mania!" "it'll come back!" "that's not healthy"
They almost sound hopeful when they anticipate it getting bad again... it creeps me out.
So much of therapy and therapy culture feels of emotional cucking, wanting to see that pain.
I hate it, i hope this ends soon.

Modern movies feel so harsh and clangy, but movies from the 80s have such a nice soft, but clearly audible sound to them.