u/Brilliant_Pride_1539

I’ve never experienced true love. Hindi ko pa naranasan mahalin nang tama, and I regret the times I chose to compromise myself just to stay.

One of my biggest regrets is naging kabit ako. I’m still not fully healed, physically and emotionally, kasi hanggang ngayon may symptoms pa ako at need ko pa ng follow-up checkups. It’s a constant reminder of everything I went through.

I also regret giving my first time to someone who was deceitful. Minsan naiisip ko, the moment nalaman niya na wala pa akong naging boyfriend parang naging opportunity niya yun.

Masakit. Naiiyak ako. I feel like I’ve missed out on being genuinely pursued, yung mahalin ka nang tama at sigurado. Habang tumatanda ako, I can feel myself becoming bitter. I see my friends being treated right, becoming the best versions of themselves in healthy relationships. Habang ako, nandito pa rin, still trying to heal, still unlearning what I thought was normal, still accepting what feels familiar even when it hurts.

Kahit sarili kong katawan, hindi ako safe.

After having a bv, and until now, hindi pa rin nawala after meds. I don't see s*x na good thing. Hindi ko alam kung paano kukunin ang pera for my following check up. Hindi ko alam kung paano to save money. I do really regret everything. Nag sisisi na ako. Wala ka ngang ambag sa buhay ko, like you said before. Naiinis lang ako sa situation ko.

Before, i smells nice pa. After getting engage sa kanya, nagbago odor ko. May poor oral hygiene habit kasi siya, at may denture siya. And i think yun na yung reason hindi na ata siya madalas nag tutoothbrush. I smell like him na. Even though na may ibang sakit pa ako, hindi ganto amoy ko.

I can't wait to heal na. I hope, this time, ako naman.

I think, tama sinabi ng friends ko at nang iba dito. He take advantage of me nga. He said na rin na convenient ako, kaya ako.