r/AlasFeels

yung magaling kong ex accidentally nakita ko account dito and naconfirm ko na nireject siya nung girl na pinagcheatan niya sakin based sa posts niya HAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAH bilis ng karma mo boi e ano sadboi ka ngayon???! Cinonfront pa kita ayaw mo pa aminin e huling huli ka na nga. Deserve mo yan leche ka.

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I’ve been living in the U.S. for about four years now. I work in the medical field, trying to build a stable life, doing what I thought I was supposed to do—focus on career, responsibilities, and the future.

And I did.

But somewhere along the way, I realized something feels… missing.

I built the life, but I forgot to find someone to share it with.

I tried dating apps, but honestly, they haven’t worked for me. There aren’t many Pinoys where I am, and most of the time it just feels forced or empty. So here I am, posting this instead—just putting it out there.

I don’t even know if this is the right place, but I guess I just needed to say it somewhere.

I’m 36M. Introverted. More of a homebody. I enjoy simple things—cooking, grocery runs, playing guitar sometimes, just being at home and at peace. I’m not the type who dates around just to pass time. For me, if I date, it’s because I see something real.

Lately, I’ve been thinking more about companionship. Not just having someone, but having my person. Someone I can come home to. Someone I can build a life with—not just financially, but emotionally too.

My dad keeps asking me when he’ll have an apo. I just laugh it off most of the time, but deep down, I think about it too.

I guess this post is just me admitting that I’m ready for that part of life now. And maybe a little bit of hope that somewhere out there, there’s someone looking for the same thing.

If not… at least I got this off my chest.

When all I've ever been was maging true and completely honest? Bakit kayo nagsisinungaling? Masarap ba sa pakiramdam na nakakaisa kayo sa ibang tao? Nakakatulog kayo ng mahimbing knowing may taong paniwalang paniwala sainyo? Masaya kayong may nauto kayo at napaniwala na totoo din kayo?

Hassle kayo sa oras sa utak sa feelings at sa emosyon! Sana palaging may daga sa bahay nyo at laging panis ulam nyo!

May minahal ako na isang lalaki dati, pero hindi sapat ang pagmamahal niya sa akin, and it is worse than the bare minimum. Minahal lang niya ako kase gusto niya ng kasama, pero halatang walang interest sa akin.

Pinakamalaking pagkakamali ko ang makipagrelasyon sa isang avoidant talaga. Looking back at it, I don’t regret pouring all my love into him. Handa ako, pero siya hindi. pero ang unfair kase yung ginawa niya ngayon is projecting and making me the villain in his story to all his friends, pero wala akong magawa since alam ko naman yung totoo and ego na talaga niya yung nasaktan.

Ang gusto ko lang naman ay mahalin ako, I just want to be seen. Is it really hard to meet people who truly see me for who I am? Or am I not really that hard to understand lang? talagang rarely met by someone patient enough to look beyond the surface ganun.

Anyway, what feels like neglect isn’t my lack of meaning, but the absence of his willingness to sit with it long enough to see it unfold, but he didn't. he chose to be blind about it. I am glad he did kase I wouldn't settle with someone like that for the rest of my liiiiife.

I will delete this soon when I feel the awkwardness crawling out of my skin reading this. Thank you for listening to my rant.

Sometimes people ask about him, or sometimes I'd ask the opinion of others about something that involves him / us.

Pag kinukwento ko na, or pag may shinare akong conversation sa kanila, all of them says "ang bait nya"

Sobrang bait talaga niya. I have never encountered anyone like him. Gentle, kind, understanding, accepting. Plus intelligent, hard working and a go getter. Also accomplished and good looking and always very humble about it. Pero siyempre hindi naman perfect yan.

Kanina sobra akong nag fail sa tinry naming gawin. I really felt bad, embarrassed. Yung comfort na nakuha ko sa kanya, yung assurance, grabe 😭😭😭😭

Ang swerte ko.

Sana ito na. Gusto ko na siya. Lord bigay mo na sa akin ito. Babaitan ko po, promise 😇♥️🙏