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You subconsciously believe and sees that the devil know why you are.

When I first got psychosis i remember my primary fear was that the demon is trying to get me to believe I’m someone who I’m not and get me to believe I’m someone suicidal. Over the years, the fear went from me just trying to protect my feelings and emotions from the devil, to just fight or flight, I slowly started to feel like I’m losing the battle with the devil. It’s like it programmed my brain into someone who has to keep fighting battles over how I feel. But before psychosis I felt at peace and acceptance with how I feel, I remeber feeling a lot more, like nothing was worth fighting over in life.