Psychosis experience - moderation
Psychosis experiences - moderation
I've been using opiates since I was 18 at 20 I got clean until an accident they prescribed them to me for in 2013. in 2014 after they stopped prescribing them I came across kratom as a safer method and used it ever since. Outside of the depression and anxiety from heavier abuse, I started experiencing delusions and psychosis in 2016. I kept drinking and taking kratom up until 23' when I got sober from alcohol and 24' I tapered slowly off kratom with lots of help and support of another subs members.
I thought alcohol and kratom were what was causing the delusions and psychosis so I quit. Fast forward 2 years and I just had a psychosis relapse while sober. they prescribed Suboxone 4 months after quitting kratom cause they said I was going through PAWS and I've been on that since. I want off everything though but the psych meds to see what my base line actually is. what they are prescribing me now doesn't help a shit ton. I'm having mania, and panic attacks from the anxiety and on top have been severely depressed since getting sober. Recently I finally started having kratom cravings. I just need some type of relief from this stuff. my hair is falling out from the stress of it all.
My question to y'all is, how many of you hear voices, believe delusions, or have had non substance induced psychosis? If any, did kratom help alleviate those symptoms at all in moderation and on a strict protocol? I've gotten really good at tapering myself off things over the years and taking things by the book. i am wondering if I should return to responsible kratom use to help stabilize and get my life back on track. like I have barely been able to work. It's been ridiculous and debilitating for me mentally and physically. Sobriety things are supposed to get better. I'm just so tired of the stress. so tired. It's impossible for me to relax and I sleep in fragments for over 8 hours. I don't know if the meds shot my nervous system or if long term alcohol use, kratom use, isolation, depression, and sedentaranism shot it but it's absolutely shot. The largest problem is it puts me in a state of freeze constantly. My brain runs 90 mph while my body can only go so fast and feels hard to move.
Thanks in advance for any insight you all may have. I would very much appreciate not being alone in this but I'm simultaneously always alone. Much love and respect.