r/PHSapphics

guys is it true na malala yung heartbreak sa first wlw rs? dami ko nakikita hirap daw magmove-on 😭😭 natatakot na tuloy ako kasi ang lala pa ng attachment issues q HWABHABHA

can u guys pls share ur experience 😞

anyone here playing valorant!!!! or any games, lets be mutuals. Nakakapagod na makipaglaro sa mga lalake 😭😭😭

nearly 9 months post break up. im a very sentimental person, so its very difficult for me to let go of things that ive given meaning to. but today, everything i had in my hidden album has now been emptied and deleted forever :)

once again this is your reminder to keep pushing through. malayo pa, pero sobrang layo na.

Lord, gusto ko na magkajowa, please lang. Wala naman akong specific na tao in mind, pero sana not same career or ka-work ko (sorry, ayoko lang ng same circle).

Pero bakit ganon??? Yung mga ka-work na ang sama ng ugali, manyak, at libog… may jowa??? Like hello??? Ang unfair.

Minsan napapaisip ako, bakit ba ako naging tomboy, parang mas nahirapan tuloy. Naiinis na ako, sorry kung medyo OA.

Paano kung bigla na lang ako mawala? Eh di wala man lang akong na-experience na lambing or kilig. Puro na lang friendship at family.

I don’t know, I’m just so pissed. Sorry medyo toxic

lesbian visibility week and yet there is no nerdy butch visible in my life rnnn!!! is the butch recession myth true 💔💔💔💔

di naman sa sinasabi ko i dont have any lesbian/sapphic friends. hell, i have plenty of them kaso nga lang puro online mga kakilala ko and di pa filipino huhu. college feels isolated outside of orgs and the idea of attending a sunny event intimidates me as an introvert. im only 20 and in my first year of college but i cant help but find it hard to find ppl who are like-minded and will invest in the things i like. hay buhay

I recently reconnected with someone I’ve known for a long time through a mutual friend. We never had any romantic history before, but we were familiar with each other, so when we started talking again, it felt easy and natural.

This time around, the connection felt different. Conversations had depth, there was consistency at the start, and it didn’t feel surface level. We spent time together in person, and it honestly felt genuine like something that could potentially turn into more.

But here’s where I get conflicted.

She identifies as straight and has openly said she wants to eventually be in a relationship with a man, especially since she’s been single for a while. She did mention having some kind of experience with a girl in the past, but it didn’t go anywhere and that was a long time ago.

At the same time, the way we connect when we talk feels… different. It doesn’t feel purely platonic to me, which is why I’m struggling to reconcile what she says vs. how things feel on my end.

After we spent time together, her communication became inconsistent. There are moments where she’ll still engage in small ways like reacting, tapping in, or giving just enough attention to remind me she’s there but when it comes to actual consistency or deeper conversation, she pulls back or disappears.

It’s been this cycle of feeling close, then suddenly distant.

I’ve tried to handle it calmly. I didn’t pressure her, didn’t over message, and gave her space. But I can’t ignore how confusing and draining the inconsistency has been.

So now I’m stuck questioning myself more than anything am I reading too much into the connection because of how it feels to me? Or is there actually something there, and she’s just holding back for her own reasons?

For anyone who’s been in a similar situation especially when the other person says they’re straight but the connection feels different am I just fixating on something that isn’t really there? Or is this one of those situations where there could be something, but it’s just not being fully acknowledged?

How can I forgive someone when I can’t even forget what happened? I don’t know how to remove this grudge that I feel cause it keeps on haunting me even if I’m away na. Basically, I moved to a new place before because of how toxic my family, I had to transfer school and to a new environment.

It was a rural area, not modernized and urbanized pa. I tried to fit in with people there and adapted their ways in life for a few months. Unfortunately, things happen for a reason they say. There’s this girl who I treated as a friend. She’s religious (Baptist) which is good for her, active din siya sa church nila. Got good grades iykyk the grading system of DepEd (kinda shitty cause of how biased they are, mostly teachers)

I started dating a girl and she was the first one I told about liking that gir. I thought she’s cool with it but I guess not. She spread that around campus, people distan themselves at me as if I’m a disease na nakakahawa. I didn’t let it bother me at first, I had guts that she told everyone because that environment is not really open abt things like that. People would give me dirty looks but I didn’t mind.

Then, hinihintay ko na lang na umamin siya kasi alam ko na sa loob ko nga. Eventually umamin din pero masakit pala manggaling sa kanya yung katotohanan. I heard from a friend of her na nilaag siya, group kasi and nagstalk sila ng tiktok reposts nung girl na nagustuhan ko. They would mock at laugh at us cause we started to talk that time. It was not that easy cause it is considered cyberbullying kasi gumawa pa sila ng gc para pag usapan kami.

Pano ba magpatawad? Kasi nag usap kami pero sa sobrang selfless ko sinabi kong okay lang at sana wag na maulit, wag na lang idamay yung nagugustuhan ko. We didn’t talk after that and she has the nerve na umakto na para bang siya yung inapi. Galit na galit ako deep inside, how can people be so evil even if they worship Lord? How can they be so hypocrit? Is praying and confessing enough to save themselves from their sins?

I had to transfer again and I found out later on that she was the valedictoria which didn’t sit right with some of my cm na same strand na STEM. Majority of them told me that I should be the one na top 1 if I was there. Not saying that she’s whatever, same kasi kami ng performance academically. In my defense, I don’t think I did something bad to her for her to treat me like that.

Ang unfair lang kasi siya yung sumakses eh. Bakit hindi man lang siya kinakarma? Dahil ba religious siya at ako hindi? Dahil ba active sa church at ako hindi? Isa rin tong dahilan bat medyo lumayo pa ako sa Diyos kasi ang unfair sa part ko. Hindi man lang siya nagsuffer sa mga bagay na ginawa niya. Kulang na lang maging mangkukulam ako eh para ako na magparusa o kaya i-evil eye ko siya. I know this is bad but you can’t blame me if I feel like this. I spent days crying in my bed when they did stuff to me. I asked God why His children making me feel like shit. Not to mention that all her friends are religious too and part of that gc.

How could I forget that? even forgive? Feeling ko mafufulfill lang ako kapag nakita kong naghihirap siya.