Feeling like I'm on waves everyday...
Hello everyone. I came across this platform learning how everyone here either gets help or the feeling that they are not alone. So I thought to give it a try as well. I don't know how to describe what I feel exactly but I'll try my best....
So..the background details in short. I 24F have had a good childhood. I've never had problem making friends or anything. I am mostly happy with myself. Up until 2020 I had one of the best life anyone could think of. That was when I completed my schooling. After it covid came. I didn't really have any college life as I did it remotely. I was inside my house all day. Barely went out. But I was happy. I didn't really feel like missing out on anything or such.
Fast forward to 2024. Feb..I had a panic attack. At that time I thought it was the end. I was having a heart attack. I was dying. And lets say life after it has been different.
It took me a few months to grasp it. I was so confused. Why did I have panic? Anxiety? I was happy. I went through brain tests and heart tests as my palpitations won't stop. Before I went to a psychiatrist and he ruled out panic attack.
After it i started craving people. Humans. I joined a few games and met people. And as long as I was occupied my Anxiety was on hold. It took time but things got better. So thats what I thought. I was deficient in Magnesium, Vit B12 and D3. Supplements helped.
Its 2026 now. And what I can describe about my feelings would be..
I am every single day going though the same feeling of being on a boat in the middle of ocean..
If I am sitting in a chair doing stuff I'd feel those zaps like my head just went in wave. If I stand in feel my legs are a nit heavier...like I am in a wave motion. Or just jumpy. If I walk i often feel my legs are stepping on clouds.
If I lay on bed to rest or sleep..I'll feel like I'm on a boat that's sailing. Sometimes it's a rocking chair feel. Sometimes I feel like I am moving back forth..swaying sideways. I could swear I feel I'm in motion. But when I record myself I barely see any visible motion..when I am anxious I can capture slight swaying and others can see it too.
The thing is..its constant now. Every day. I didn't travel but what I feel is like a motion sickness that refuses to go awat. Its always there...some days worse. Some barely there. But it's interfering with my life..I barely want to go out. I am constantly checking if I feel okay. And the worst part is...I notice if I dont feel it for some time..and my first thought is..wow it didnt come today and thats when it starts again.
I have this fear that I'll faint even though I know I wont. I still take Supplements and its helping but...I don't know who to go to for this. I have really important exams I need to sit for..its life deciding for me. If anyone can help. Even slightly. I'd be deeply grateful.
Google says it's some inner ear thing. Its not exactly vertigo. It says a lot of things like PPPD and others match it. I am so confused. Any advice or suggestions would be helpful. Thank you if you took time out to read it..