I don't know how, when, where to start but everytime my officemates tell me na nandun sya nakatambay, I feel pained.
I have no guts to say " Hi" but I wish someday, our eyes would meet again with smiles. I miss him so much. I miss the way we were. Arguing and being goofy like kids. Caring with each other.
I have never found that one until he came. :(
Why do I long for him every time?
Why did we need to meet?
Why did you let him to treat me the best if he couldn't be the one for me?
Of all the encounters that I had been, why him?
Hindi ko na sya makalimutan. Sa kanya ko lang naramdaman yung feeling na matagal ko nang hinintay. Hinanap ko yun kung saan-saan, alam mo yun?
Tapos ibibigay mo yung taong hindi ko afford mahalin dahil napakalaki ng agwat namin by age, by financial status, everything.
Okay na ako eh. I was secured but he became my phantom. Avoidant akong tao. Ok na sana ako sa LDR pero tangina. Ibinigay nyo pa sya sa akin. Sa taong mahihirapan ako para mahalin yun?
Hindi sya phantom ex e, kasi di naman naging kami pero sa kanya lang ako nakahanap ng rare connection.
Nakakagago.
Isa pa ha. Bakit ganon? Kahit anong gawin ko, di ako okay? I tried to forget him by hanging out randomly, but I can't fool myself. Ngayon na pinipilit ko na makalimot, lalo ko syang minamahal.
Masakit sa lahat 'to, yung mismong tadhana ang kalaban mo. :(