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I absolutely hate my life, but I also dread having to instantly pay bills etc as soon as I start working, **I'm also finding myself worried about what could happen If I lost my job or something** idk life is just too much sometimes.

I have absolutely nothing so it's hard to even feel interested or excited for the future. I'm tired already. being at home has drained me, I didn't have some easy life.

I have to be in a caregiving role for my parent and at times it is way too much.

I also forget sometimes the exact times to give the parent their medicine , to which my sister gets mad (sh.used to be rhe main carer but I started helping more since I got older) But he could HELP me if he sees I'm struggling to remember times, I am also the one who collects them and she doesn't help. I also have to tell her to order them , I didn't realise I should do it say a week before they run out because my mind is so busy so she got mad at that and I understand but I also feel like she could help me with these by asking me if she needs to order more sometimes.

I understand why she got mad but I'm also fed up of it all, it's causing me to have resentment towards everyone here I CAN'T keep a clear head and remember things when I'm constantly friggin stressed and drained.

I was planning to move out this year but agreed to stay to help care for the loved one while my sibling goes away for a while, and now I feel so much worse, I feel so much dread, I no longer have that "escape" to look forward to :( 💔

however she's coming back after a few months, by then life will be better because I'm going to make it better and find better ways to cope with this and **I'm going to start pouring into myself and my own life more** !

I also may eventually just tell my sister I want to go ahead with my original plans and move out, she might get mad that I basically went back on my word which is very valid of her, **but I am done, seriously my world feels so gloomy and death seems like the only escape sometimes** !

I'm resentful, and I'm tired of being drained. housework drains me. I've become a shell of myself , my room is a mess, I avoid cleaning because I'm so burnt out, my brother judges me sometimes even though he understands sometimes that I'm just overwhelmed etc.

I'm also resentful at him because he has started picking up more with the housework and sometimes he acts like he had to suffer "because" of us yada yada when I felt the exact same about him at times..! He could add to the housework load too! But for me I didn't judge him, I gave him understanding, knowing I'd been there myself too (not doing much housework due to the overwhelm of carrying so much of it all and in general)

There were times I did everything, and times I needed help with things but nobody cared..

Another example, when I'd see my siblings room a mess or parents, I'd offer to help them or just do it because I felt bad for them, clearly they weren't in a good place etc, and it's nice to help, I didn't judge them **My room never gets messy, up until like the end of last year when I started getting rly depressed, nobody rly seemed to care of offers me help if it gets like that**

Which is fine but I've just been realising how so much of my labour is unseen in the end.

**I also noticed that when cooking, people seem to feel bad for her and want to help her, but with me nobody offers to help lmao** . I have clocked that.

**I can't cope anymore, I do NOT want to be here, I HATE my life, I HATE feeling so gloomy and full of dread every single damn day** But I'm also trapped,

I'm done.

it was predicted by two tarot readers that me and a love interest won't work out..

I did my own tarot on if we could overcome issues and I got strong yes's and then no's so ofc I've over shuffled.

mt logical mind knows both of us could try to fix things if we wanted to, it depends on how we'd both feel etc etc.

But now I'm afraid to let him in ever, since I already "know" we might "end" :/

it was predicted by two tarot readers that me and a love interest won't work out..

I did my own tarot on if we could overcome issues and I got strong yes's and then no's so ofc I've over shuffled.

mt logical mind knows both of us could try to fix things if we wanted to, it depends on how we'd both feel etc etc.

But now I'm afraid to let him in ever, since I already "know" we might "end" :/

I'm not wishing any actual harm, but he doesn't deserve to get to just move on and find love (he's already with a new girl) after hurting me for years and being so careless with my heart it is disgusting.

I hope.thr universe manages it but I kinda worry it won't :(

that man NEEDS to damn learn his lesson that he can't treat women who love him that way (totally ignoring my feelings for years, becoming verbally abusive and I realise even more how I didn't deserve it because I was upset at him for valid damn reasons , him getting pissed because of it was him being immature truly vs just being better , I think he was an avoidant or something)

Idk I've never ever been the type to do spellwork like this, I'd rather let the universe handle it, infact maybe I'll just speak to the universe about how I feel he deserves some karma for how he treated me, but I guess the universe knows best..

I'm a very loving soul.. I already change my mind... But I hope he gets some sort of karma.

Oooh how I love hearing people's stories and experiences with witchcraft, the spirit realm and manifestation etc.

For me personally I've had my own few experiences with them all, I clearly saw spirit a few times in my life, clear as day, **and I had an out of body experience, saw my own BODY when I was a child** and there was a man above me, on a golden throne, honestly resembling jesus ... Smiling down at me, I grew up religious so I knew of him, and now that I'm no longer religious I still have respect for him (apparently it's proven he actually existed) I feel like he was just spiritually in tune (very) and religions made their own story of it up, the same way spiritual people have their own views of him.

I have no clue why that even happened to me, I panicked and begged to be put back down into my body so I didn't get to go up and actually "meet" him lol.

This was a very real experience to me, sure sometimes I wonder if It was just a dream but I remember being so alert, (you'll understand if you've had similar) It was so real, and from a young age I had rare encounters of seeing a spirit loved one so I was quite in touch to be honest.

As for manifesting... **There were times I literally thought of something I wanted, and it'd pop into my reality** Even if I didnt Google it or search it up on my phone, I'd start seeing it online lol.

**Or it'll pop into my life in person**

This happened with a book I really wanted.. I had lots of passion for it, like I'd daydream about it, KNEW I'd get it eventually because I planned to BUY it, **the only issue was, I couldn't afford it and was unsure of when I could.. so I was a bit sad, but kept it in my mind to get it someday** (I was very poor back then) - **One day, I went to a thrift store (HIGHLY recommended them!! Also known as antique shops, or charity shops) **AND THERE IT WAS FOR LIKE £1.50 or something** !!

It was just such a strange coincidence to me 🤷🏻‍♀️🥹

it was shiny and new too, (funny thing is I'm a huse procrastinator LOL so I STILL haven't read it much and it's been almost a year since I got it 💀)

And then with witchcraft... I never got FULLY into it, but I tried small spells at times and they seemed to work sometimes, **usually when I was rly passionate about it and trying to "embody" the energy of the thing I want coming to me fast/already happening** I may question everything and be unable to fully believe in absolutely everything, but I do have a belief of energy (isn't it proven?) So I do think we CAN attract things to us.. Although sometimes I doubt even energy is real lol just because I'm a very cynical person or something, same with chakras, but I'd say overall I believe they could be real.

**I'd love to hear your stories, what got you into it, and what made you FULLY believe/realise that spellwork is real and works** Or any other spiritual thing! 😊

I naturally just became spiritual in my early teens, say about age 14, because I let go of religion, it was something I was born into, I respect it but I made my OWN beliefs you know? from experiences, things I learnt etc etc.

**I WANT to feel magical again, it's such a lovely feeling when I realise these things are real, but so often the world weighs me down and I forget or start to lose belief/hope , I want to feel more like I can manifest things more, work with energy, etc, so I love hearing other peoples experiences** !

I also sometimes look up "made you believe in witchcraft Reddit" so I can see other people's experiences 🕯️🥹

Oooh how I love hearing people's stories and experiences with witchcraft, the spirit realm and manifestation etc.

For me personally I've had my own few experiences with them all, I clearly saw spirit a few times in my life, clear as day, **and I had an out of body experience, saw my own BODY when I was a child** and there was a man above me, on a golden throne, honestly resembling jesus ... Smiling down at me, I grew up religious so I knew of him, and now that I'm no longer religious I still have respect for him (apparently it's proven he actually existed) I feel like he was just spiritually in tune (very) and religions made their own story of it up, the same way spiritual people have their own views of him.

I have no clue why that even happened to me, I panicked and begged to be put back down into my body so I didn't get to go up and actually "meet" him lol.

This was a very real experience to me, sure sometimes I wonder if It was just a dream but I remember being so alert, (you'll understand if you've had similar) It was so real, and from a young age I had rare encounters of seeing a spirit loved one so I was quite in touch to be honest.

As for manifesting... **There were times I literally thought of something I wanted, and it'd pop into my reality** Even if I didnt Google it or search it up on my phone, I'd start seeing it online lol.

**Or it'll pop into my life in person**

This happened with a book I really wanted.. I had lots of passion for it, like I'd daydream about it, KNEW I'd get it eventually because I planned to BUY it, **the only issue was, I couldn't afford it and was unsure of when I could.. so I was a bit sad, but kept it in my mind to get it someday** (I was very poor back then) - **One day, I went to a thrift store (HIGHLY recommended them!! Also known as antique shops, or charity shops) **AND THERE IT WAS FOR LIKE £1.50 or something** !!

It was just such a strange coincidence to me 🤷🏻‍♀️🥹

it was shiny and new too, (funny thing is I'm a huse procrastinator LOL so I STILL haven't read it much and it's been almost a year since I got it 💀)

And then with witchcraft... I never got FULLY into it, but I tried small spells at times and they seemed to work sometimes, **usually when I was rly passionate about it and trying to "embody" the energy of the thing I want coming to me fast/already happening** I may question everything and be unable to fully believe in absolutely everything, but I do have a belief of energy (isn't it proven?) So I do think we CAN attract things to us.. Although sometimes I doubt even energy is real lol just because I'm a very cynical person or something, same with chakras, but I'd say overall I believe they could be real.

**I'd love to hear your stories, what got you into it, and what made you FULLY believe/realise that spellwork is real and works** Or any other spiritual thing! 😊

I naturally just became spiritual in my early teens, say about age 14, because I let go of religion, it was something I was born into, I respect it but I made my OWN beliefs you know? from experiences, things I learnt etc etc.

**I WANT to feel magical again, it's such a lovely feeling when I realise these things are real, but so often the world weighs me down and I forget or start to lose belief/hope , I want to feel more like I can manifest things more, work with energy, etc, so I love hearing other peoples experiences** !

I also sometimes look up "made you believe in witchcraft Reddit" so I can see other people's experiences 🕯️🥹

Oooh how I love hearing people's stories and experiences with witchcraft, the spirit realm and manifestation etc.

For me personally I've had my own few experiences with them all, I clearly saw spirit a few times in my life, clear as day, **and I had an out of body experience, saw my own BODY when I was a child** and there was a man above me, on a golden throne, honestly resembling jesus ... Smiling down at me, I grew up religious so I knew of him, and now that I'm no longer religious I still have respect for him (apparently it's proven he actually existed) I feel like he was just spiritually in tune (very) and religions made their own story of it up, the same way spiritual people have their own views of him.

I have no clue why that even happened to me, I panicked and begged to be put back down into my body so I didn't get to go up and actually "meet" him lol.

This was a very real experience to me, sure sometimes I wonder if It was just a dream but I remember being so alert, (you'll understand if you've had similar) It was so real, and from a young age I had rare encounters of seeing a spirit loved one so I was quite in touch to be honest.

As for manifesting... **There were times I literally thought of something I wanted, and it'd pop into my reality** Even if I didnt Google it or search it up on my phone, I'd start seeing it online lol.

**Or it'll pop into my life in person**

This happened with a book I really wanted.. I had lots of passion for it, like I'd daydream about it, KNEW I'd get it eventually because I planned to BUY it, **the only issue was, I couldn't afford it and was unsure of when I could.. so I was a bit sad, but kept it in my mind to get it someday** (I was very poor back then) - **One day, I went to a thrift store (HIGHLY recommended them!! Also known as antique shops, or charity shops) **AND THERE IT WAS FOR LIKE £1.50 or something** !!

It was just such a strange coincidence to me 🤷🏻‍♀️🥹

it was shiny and new too, (funny thing is I'm a huse procrastinator LOL so I STILL haven't read it much and it's been almost a year since I got it 💀)

And then with witchcraft... I never got FULLY into it, but I tried small spells at times and they seemed to work sometimes, **usually when I was rly passionate about it and trying to "embody" the energy of the thing I want coming to me fast/already happening** I may question everything and be unable to fully believe in absolutely everything, but I do have a belief of energy (isn't it proven?) So I do think we CAN attract things to us.. Although sometimes I doubt even energy is real lol just because I'm a very cynical person or something, same with chakras, but I'd say overall I believe they could be real.

**I'd love to hear your stories, what got you into it, and what made you FULLY believe/realise that spellwork is real and works** Or any other spiritual thing! 😊

I naturally just became spiritual in my early teens, say about age 14, because I let go of religion, it was something I was born into, I respect it but I made my OWN beliefs you know? from experiences, things I learnt etc etc.

**I WANT to feel magical again, it's such a lovely feeling when I realise these things are real, but so often the world weighs me down and I forget or start to lose belief/hope , I want to feel more like I can manifest things more, work with energy, etc, so I love hearing other peoples experiences** !

I also sometimes look up "made you believe in witchcraft Reddit" so I can see other people's experiences 🕯️🥹

Oooh how I love hearing people's stories and experiences with witchcraft, the spirit realm and manifestation etc.

For me personally I've had my own few experiences with them all, I clearly saw spirit a few times in my life, clear as day, **and I had an out of body experience, saw my own BODY when I was a child** and there was a man above me, on a golden throne, honestly resembling jesus ... Smiling down at me, I grew up religious so I knew of him, and now that I'm no longer religious I still have respect for him (apparently it's proven he actually existed) I feel like he was just spiritually in tune (very) and religions made their own story of it up, the same way spiritual people have their own views of him.

I have no clue why that even happened to me, I panicked and begged to be put back down into my body so I didn't get to go up and actually "meet" him lol.

This was a very real experience to me, sure sometimes I wonder if It was just a dream but I remember being so alert, (you'll understand if you've had similar) It was so real, and from a young age I had rare encounters of seeing a spirit loved one so I was quite in touch to be honest.

As for manifesting... **There were times I literally thought of something I wanted, and it'd pop into my reality** Even if I didnt Google it or search it up on my phone, I'd start seeing it online lol.

**Or it'll pop into my life in person**

This happened with a book I really wanted.. I had lots of passion for it, like I'd daydream about it, KNEW I'd get it eventually because I planned to BUY it, **the only issue was, I couldn't afford it and was unsure of when I could.. so I was a bit sad, but kept it in my mind to get it someday** (I was very poor back then) - **One day, I went to a thrift store (HIGHLY recommended them!! Also known as antique shops, or charity shops) **AND THERE IT WAS FOR LIKE £1.50 or something** !!

It was just such a strange coincidence to me 🤷🏻‍♀️🥹

it was shiny and new too, (funny thing is I'm a huse procrastinator LOL so I STILL haven't read it much and it's been almost a year since I got it 💀)

And then with witchcraft... I never got FULLY into it, but I tried small spells at times and they seemed to work sometimes, **usually when I was rly passionate about it and trying to "embody" the energy of the thing I want coming to me fast/already happening** I may question everything and be unable to fully believe in absolutely everything, but I do have a belief of energy (isn't it proven?) So I do think we CAN attract things to us.. Although sometimes I doubt even energy is real lol just because I'm a very cynical person or something, same with chakras, but I'd say overall I believe they could be real.

**I'd love to hear your stories, what got you into it, and what made you FULLY believe/realise that spellwork is real and works** Or any other spiritual thing! 😊

I naturally just became spiritual in my early teens, say about age 14, because I let go of religion, it was something I was born into, I respect it but I made my OWN beliefs you know? from experiences, things I learnt etc etc.

**I WANT to feel magical again, it's such a lovely feeling when I realise these things are real, but so often the world weighs me down and I forget or start to lose belief/hope , I want to feel more like I can manifest things more, work with energy, etc, so I love hearing other peoples experiences** !

I also sometimes look up "made you believe in witchcraft Reddit" so I can see other people's experiences 🕯️🥹

I feel like I can never feel truly fresh for long lol because the next day, I have to do it all again . . (i sometimes don't shower daily but I find that's not enough for me, I need it daily to be and feel clean)

As for my hair I don't rly mind showering often tbh especially when my hair is clean **but I am tired of having to keep washing my hair lmao**

it only stays oil free for like two days, by day 3 it's getting oily and day 4 it needs to be washed.

I can handle it and maybe just wash it every 5 days though, perhaps that will overwhelm me less if I make that a routine ! Vs Washing it and dreading that I'll have to do it again soon.

Making this post has made me realise my main issue is hair wash days 😂 showering can be fast, shaving etc can even be fun to me because I feel so fresh and more feminine after - (not saying it's not feminine not to shave)

**I also have a fringe and I HAVE to wash that daily or it is greasy and just makes me feel dirty + may give me pimples** So while I wash my face I also have to wash my fringe which can be tiring..!

Anyone felt this way and found ways to overcome it/ better manage it? :)

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I believe some things in our life are fated, experiences and people we meet, but I don't believe absolutely every part of our life is predetermined (some people do believe that)

And sometimes this causes me to get muddled up.

**I also believe there are certain friends, lovers etc that I'm meant to meet in this life** And that we all have them, but that we can also meet other friends, lovers etc that our soul didn't exactly agree on happening, that can also bloom into wonderful relationships.

**TLDR**

I believe that certain life events are pre planned (our soul chooses to go through certain things for growth etc)

And I believe that certain people are **meant** to be/come into our lives **doesn't mean they'll stay forever**

**But I'm also open to the idea of manifestation, because I personally have had moments where something has just been too odd to just be a simple coincidence**

**I see people who write down what they want in a partner, and then boom they meet someone exactly like that and usually be very happy for a long time/forever**

**Same with people manifesting new friends**

Now, I'd love to do all this, I would!

**But my mind worries that since I had to GO OUT OF MY WAY AND MANIFESTTT these people, then they probably weren't the people who were "meant" to be in my life** ?

I know it's so silly, but it's a real struggle of mine! :(

I WANT to meet the people who my soul wanted me to meet, but I'd also love to experience certain types of friendships and relationships, **like I'd love a friend who has X traits, interests etc, same with a man**

but if I manifest them, it almost feels cloned and fake,

**At the same time, I understand manifesting is just knowing what we want and attracting it into our lives** that helps me with all these feelings, **but still, if I had to go out and manifest someone or something, then it probably wasnt on my soul plan or whatever**

Gosh my brain!!

Oh and... Why the hell am I so set on it all having to be part of what my soul agreed to? **why can't I just live in the moment and try to enjoy and manifest my desires** ? I know sometimes we desire certain things because they are meant for us/good for us so our soul is open to it...

hmm maybe I've answered my own questions, but still, **I know my brain will spiral again soon** so I'd damn appreciate anyone's advice or anyone who's ever experienced this !

I feel pretty alone in this struggle haha!

Edit

Okay, I know manifesting something is just attracting things we desire to us, we've all done it, I've seen it with myself and others haha! Sometimes for me it's very strong.

But I do struggle with these thoughts sometimes.. And it kinda makes me feel like I "forced" something, I'd rather it happen naturally basically, at the same time though after writing all this, I feel much more clear headed, and I don't rly feel those overthinking worries lol, because if I desire say, a pink car, or a friendship like this, or a man like that, there is nothing wrong with trying to manifest that into my life I just struggle with the thought of these things (especially relationships) not being "meant" "destined" for me since I had to manifest it, thus I worry the relationship may not last etc.

For many people this card is a big yes but I can't be sure on either so I'd love some interpretations.. :/

So, basically today I really wanted to connect with my spirit guide. I know the name of one, because in the past I tried to connect to one and I kept getting a certain name in my head.. Oddly, at that time, I also made a friend who had the exact same name ? For her it was a nickname of hers but it kept being in my head so I asked her if it means anything to her and she was SHOCKED. Just a strange coincidence, **and after, a psychic medium gave me the EXACT same name for my spirit guide** ! Sorry but that's such a strange coincidence too! So most likely, the name I got was right, although I'm sure our guides don't mind whatever name they have or any name we make for them.

Now onto my experience:

So for a while now I was obsessing with my own tarot and even asking other tarot readers about a love potential, got VERY positive cards, for how he feels about me, and if we'd get into a relationship, **I was only so obsessed because this man felt so familiar** And at times I got repeated cards, along with a card that represented "him" to me. I sometimes still get that card if I ask about me and him..

Eventually though, I started to get negative cards.

idk if it was maybe even because of my OWN fears? It kept happening **maybe because I over shuffled too**

But, I ended up asking the tarot reader who got the exact same cards as I did, if the negative cards I got were true.

She ended up pulling positive cards **then negative ones, similar to the ones I pulled** (I started getting 3 of swords, 10 of wands, **in my gut it felt like there'd be some sort of struggle that would affect the relationship, which was already a fear of mine due to a personal issue in my life** But I wonder if tarot was just repeating my own fears back to me at that point.. Because when I open my heart to the idea of us overcoming issues etc, the cards usually stay positive!

But it scares me more that that tarot reader ended up predicting the relationship would have issues and it'd end he wouldn't want to be with me anymore etc.

**Now, today, I rly tried connecting with my spirit guide, I first did it via an online tarot thing BUT then I did it with my own cards**

I'd ask if we can overcome struggles and stay together instead of just ending like the psychic predicted, and I got the queen of cups, however I felt that was more my spirit guides energy and her way of letting me know she's with me right now.. :)

I also find myself pulling the 8 of penctacles a LOT when I ask if we could overcome struggles? same with 3 of pentacles, could that mean we could work towards overcoming things?

The last card I pulled via the online way, was ... **The card I see as HIM** so idk if it's tarots way of giving me a YES? I also got the wheel of fortune and sometimes pull it with him and I.

**Then with my own deck** I pulled positive cards to my question, but I was still unsure, so I decided I'll just take a break or something,

coincidentally, I had a random urge to split the deck, and I just did it.

**Oddly, the cards that were at the top after I split the deck into 4-5, were cards I pulled in the past with HIM** So it felt a bit like tarot was speaking to me lol.

I acknowledged and thanked my spirit guide if that was actually from her, but I was unsure so I put the deck back together and decided I'll just pull ONE card and ask it to give me a positive card if it's true that me and my love interest could overcome struggles Vs just splitting up.

The four of wands fell out...

**Has anyone ever experienced similar, times when it felt like tarot could truly hear you? Have you also tried to communicate with spirit through it** ?

And what's your interpretation on all of this?

Before I even got negative cards, I was already worried the relationship could not work due to a issue in my life, that's when I started to get negative cards more.. It seems like if I keep a positive mindset and try not to let a certain issue affect my relationship, then it won't?

**And when the tarot reader predicted an end, In my gut I just couldn't accept that that was it, maybe it was wishful thinking but I felt there had to be another way, that maybe we could overcome issues - And that's what my cards tell me sometimes too** ..

The fact that this time I REALLY tried connecting with my spirit guide, and then all of this happened, perhaps my question has been answered?

**if anyone is up to it, I'd even love a free shuffle on if it IS possible we could overcome challenges because I do struggle to trust myself**

So, basically today I really wanted to connect with my spirit guide. I know the name of one, because in the past I tried to connect to one and I kept getting a certain name in my head.. Oddly, at that time, I also made a friend who had the exact same name ? For her it was a nickname of hers but it kept being in my head so I asked her if it means anything to her and she was SHOCKED. Just a strange coincidence, **and after, a psychic medium gave me the EXACT same name for my spirit guide** ! Sorry but that's such a strange coincidence too! So most likely, the name I got was right, although I'm sure our guides don't mind whatever name they have or any name we make for them.

Now onto my experience:

So for a while now I was obsessing with my own tarot and even asking other tarot readers about a love potential, got VERY positive cards, for how he feels about me, and if we'd get into a relationship, **I was only so obsessed because this man felt so familiar** And at times I got repeated cards, along with a card that represented "him" to me. I sometimes still get that card if I ask about me and him..

Eventually though, I started to get negative cards.

idk if it was maybe even because of my OWN fears? It kept happening **maybe because I over shuffled too**

But, I ended up asking the tarot reader who got the exact same cards as I did, if the negative cards I got were true.

She ended up pulling positive cards **then negative ones, similar to the ones I pulled** (I started getting 3 of swords, 10 of wands, **in my gut it felt like there'd be some sort of struggle that would affect the relationship, which was already a fear of mine due to a personal issue in my life** But I wonder if tarot was just repeating my own fears back to me at that point.. Because when I open my heart to the idea of us overcoming issues etc, the cards usually stay positive!

But it scares me more that that tarot reader ended up predicting the relationship would have issues and it'd end he wouldn't want to be with me anymore etc.

**Now, today, I rly tried connecting with my spirit guide, I first did it via an online tarot thing BUT then I did it with my own cards**

I'd ask if we can overcome struggles and stay together instead of just ending like the psychic predicted, and I got the queen of cups, however I felt that was more my spirit guides energy and her way of letting me know she's with me right now.. :)

I also find myself pulling the 8 of penctacles a LOT when I ask if we could overcome struggles? same with 3 of pentacles, could that mean we could work towards overcoming things?

The last card I pulled via the online way, was ... **The card I see as HIM** so idk if it's tarots way of giving me a YES? I also got the wheel of fortune and sometimes pull it with him and I.

**Then with my own deck** I pulled positive cards to my question, but I was still unsure, so I decided I'll just take a break or something,

coincidentally, I had a random urge to split the deck, and I just did it.

**Oddly, the cards that were at the top after I split the deck into 4-5, were cards I pulled in the past with HIM** So it felt a bit like tarot was speaking to me lol.

I acknowledged and thanked my spirit guide if that was actually from her, but I was unsure so I put the deck back together and decided I'll just pull ONE card and ask it to give me a positive card if it's true that me and my love interest could overcome struggles Vs just splitting up.

The four of wands fell out...

**Has anyone ever experienced similar, times when it felt like tarot could truly hear you? Have you also tried to communicate with spirit through it** ?

And what's your interpretation on all of this?

Before I even got negative cards, I was already worried the relationship could not work due to a issue in my life, that's when I started to get negative cards more.. It seems like if I keep a positive mindset and try not to let a certain issue affect my relationship, then it won't?

**And when the tarot reader predicted an end, In my gut I just couldn't accept that that was it, maybe it was wishful thinking but I felt there had to be another way, that maybe we could overcome issues - And that's what my cards tell me sometimes too** ..

The fact that this time I REALLY tried connecting with my spirit guide, and then all of this happened, perhaps my question has been answered?

**if anyone is up to it, I'd even love a free shuffle on if it IS possible we could overcome challenges because I do struggle to trust myself**

So, basically today I really wanted to connect with my spirit guide. I know the name of one, because in the past I tried to connect to one and I kept getting a certain name in my head.. Oddly, at that time, I also made a friend who had the exact same name ? For her it was a nickname of hers but it kept being in my head so I asked her if it means anything to her and she was SHOCKED. Just a strange coincidence, **and after, a psychic medium gave me the EXACT same name for my spirit guide** ! Sorry but that's such a strange coincidence too! So most likely, the name I got was right, although I'm sure our guides don't mind whatever name they have or any name we make for them.

Now onto my experience:

So for a while now I was obsessing with my own tarot and even asking other tarot readers about a love potential, got VERY positive cards, for how he feels about me, and if we'd get into a relationship, **I was only so obsessed because this man felt so familiar** And at times I got repeated cards, along with a card that represented "him" to me. I sometimes still get that card if I ask about me and him..

Eventually though, I started to get negative cards.

idk if it was maybe even because of my OWN fears? It kept happening **maybe because I over shuffled too**

But, I ended up asking the tarot reader who got the exact same cards as I did, if the negative cards I got were true.

She ended up pulling positive cards **then negative ones, similar to the ones I pulled** (I started getting 3 of swords, 10 of wands, **in my gut it felt like there'd be some sort of struggle that would affect the relationship, which was already a fear of mine due to a personal issue in my life** But I wonder if tarot was just repeating my own fears back to me at that point.. Because when I open my heart to the idea of us overcoming issues etc, the cards usually stay positive!

But it scares me more that that tarot reader ended up predicting the relationship would have issues and it'd end he wouldn't want to be with me anymore etc.

**Now, today, I rly tried connecting with my spirit guide, I first did it via an online tarot thing BUT then I did it with my own cards**

I'd ask if we can overcome struggles and stay together instead of just ending like the psychic predicted, and I got the queen of cups, however I felt that was more my spirit guides energy and her way of letting me know she's with me right now.. :)

I also find myself pulling the 8 of penctacles a LOT when I ask if we could overcome struggles? same with 3 of pentacles, could that mean we could work towards overcoming things?

The last card I pulled via the online way, was ... **The card I see as HIM** so idk if it's tarots way of giving me a YES? I also got the wheel of fortune and sometimes pull it with him and I.

**Then with my own deck** I pulled positive cards to my question, but I was still unsure, so I decided I'll just take a break or something,

coincidentally, I had a random urge to split the deck, and I just did it.

**Oddly, the cards that were at the top after I split the deck into 4-5, were cards I pulled in the past with HIM** So it felt a bit like tarot was speaking to me lol.

I acknowledged and thanked my spirit guide if that was actually from her, but I was unsure so I put the deck back together and decided I'll just pull ONE card and ask it to give me a positive card if it's true that me and my love interest could overcome struggles Vs just splitting up.

The four of wands fell out...

**Has anyone ever experienced similar, times when it felt like tarot could truly hear you? Have you also tried to communicate with spirit through it** ?

And what's your interpretation on all of this?

Before I even got negative cards, I was already worried the relationship could not work due to a issue in my life, that's when I started to get negative cards more.. It seems like if I keep a positive mindset and try not to let a certain issue affect my relationship, then it won't?

**And when the tarot reader predicted an end, In my gut I just couldn't accept that that was it, maybe it was wishful thinking but I felt there had to be another way, that maybe we could overcome issues - And that's what my cards tell me sometimes too** ..

The fact that this time I REALLY tried connecting with my spirit guide, and then all of this happened, perhaps my question has been answered?

**if anyone is up to it, I'd even love a free shuffle on if it IS possible we could overcome challenges because I do struggle to trust myself**