I had my entire schedule planned to graduate by August. I enrolled when my balance was at 0. And I just got informed that one of my classes for Summer Session A was cancelled and my balance is currently at 17k. I was trying to postpone payment with a student loan until late July so I didn’t have to make payments on it during the school semester. Now I cannot enroll in class since balance is over 3k. what do I do?
Like people say adhd is racing thoughts. Maybe this is my literal thinking happening. My thoughts don’t feel like they’re racing. it’s not like “ZOOM. SQUIRREL. YOW! ORANGE.” in like a really fast movement. it kinda feels like switching in a radio. like
“tomorrow I have to go to- hello- *song plays faintly in background* oh man I gotta grab the- *weird naggy irritated feeling in my entire body that’s mainly in my ypper chest, arms, Center of abdomen, and thighs to look away from phone but can’t pull my eyes away for no reason at all to accomplish a task* *gets headache* what did I have to grab again? think think, that one trick to remember something is to flick your eyes back and forth. this hurts- WELL IT HURTS SO GOOD CAN YOU SAY ITTTTT…”
so on so forth. but it’s not super booming loud. it’s like medium I guess? Less than my talking voice. But not a whisper. when I’m on my meds my brain sounds like that one audio that goes “ooo! eeee! ahhh! *echo*”
I forgot my other revelation typing this post. Dammit. oh yeah. I realized that I gravitate to instrumental music or like phonk beats because I cant stand hearing someone take a breath mid song. like I noticed it once and now I can’t uh hear it.
maybeeeee you guys were right. my hair texture isn’t enough to pull it off. idk I’ll keep trying
I always stand like this because it’s just so comfy. I do it if I’m getting overwhelmed