u/onion_diary — reddlx

Image 1 — 21F, Looking for friends/qpr/relationship with AFAB folks

21F, Looking for friends/qpr/relationship with AFAB folks

About me ☆

Heya! I'm Alma from Indonesia (I'll be 21 this year ^v^) I'm a creative who enjoys several hobbies such as drawing, making games, writing, and photography.

I have like several creative projects I'm working on right now, bahaha. You'll probably find me switching between ideas and having a hard time making a decision. I have games, a comic, and an animation that I need to get done. (And also some projects that I abandoned)

I'm very energetic while texting and love it when people yap about their stuff! Important stuff that I feel like I need to mention is that I have selective mutism, so I hope you can understand that sometimes I'm unable to talk physically.

When I'm feeling down or anxious, I would watch Bluey and do some activities like making art with crayons. I also like to voluntarily change my mindset to a childlike one when stressed. If you're confused, you can look up 'age dreamer'. It has helped me with coping with my mental illnesses.

What I'm looking for ☆

Someone who's kind, open-minded, and willing to communicate when there are problems between us. I'm also looking for a relationship where we have no fear in talking about basically anything! Our traumas, good and bad memories, and other stuff. Don't be afraid to ask me any questions :>

My lifestyle ☆

I'm longing for a simple life where I can create art in my cozy house. I don't need to be successful or have a lot of money to feel fulfilled. I just need my hobby and my loved ones near me :] I don't like long travels and prefer to stay at home. I like walking to the nearest park just to enjoy what nature has offered me (like petting stray cats and watching insects or birds)

My personality ☆

I'm an INFP 5w4. My friend described me as an airhead (I'm pretty sheltered to the real world since I stay at home most of the time), a creative, a highly curious person and someone who can't stick and focus on one thing. He's so done with my indecisiveness xD

Favorite games ☆

Disco Elysium
Baldur's Gate 3
Visual novels and interactive fictions
Stardew Valley

u/onion_diary — 2 days ago

▲ 1 r/sexualassault

I have so many bad experiences but wasn't sure if it's considered SA

I haven't been raped and this makes me believe that my issues aren't that serious and I'm just pulling a victim card even tho it's affecting me and makes me feel dehumanized.

I want to let things out here since I have no luck in therapy :[

So, firstly I remember in elementary school, boys younger than me and my classmate would grab my butt and I can't stand up for myself since I'm mute.

Then in middle school, my classmate who sat behind me played around with the back of my bra and almost took it off. Then there's this boy who joked about how their female classmates moaned in bed (including me)

In high school, my driver always insisted on me hugging him during the drive (we were on a scooter) he grabbed my arm and placed it around him. He also caressed my thighs during driving. Then on a rainy day when he took me home, he caressed my cheek. I felt so disgusted and uncomfortable. That day I finally told my mom about it.

Then there's my brother who would caressed my thigh when we were alone in his car.

After all of that, I just feel like a sub-human or a dog without thoughts. I feel so silly for crying as I typed this.

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u/onion_diary — 5 days ago

🔥 Hot ▲ 83 r/women

Men are getting scarier and the thought of dating a man is slowly becoming unappealing.

I've seen the news of men promoting violence against women across social medias AND I also just heard that in my country, 18 male students from a well known university created a group chat making vile disrespectful comments about women.

I've also experienced groping/assault when I was young from men older, younger and men my age. I had enough of getting my hopes up. I'm sick and tired of wishing desperately that a good man will come into my life.

I think I'll take a break from dating from now on :[ I'll just spend more time with my imaginary boyfriend. He's safe and won't do any harm to me lol

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u/onion_diary — 5 days ago