u/mybrainisacactus

Dday was over 2 years ago. We sleep in separate beds now since then. I am rarely ever intimate with him bc I am mostly disgusted with him after uncovering his addiction to voilent porn. Yeah, the "rough" kind. Repulses me. Anyway, with this new r*pe academy CNN story going viral, I am extremely triggered. It was his fav porn site...and the same one as the forum those sick husbands were using to SA their unconscious wives. I have been in a sour mood, angry, not speaking to him..just triggered all over again. I kind of hate men, I am not going to lie. I cant leave due to finances and our child. It isnt possible as much as I wish it was. It just isnt. Where do I put this anger???? I am so triggered.

I discovered my husbands porn addiction over 2 years ago. I cant bring myself to get turned on by him anymore. Our sex life has died, we sleep in separate beds now. He loves me so much but no matter what I do, I cant. Its done and over. This is what porn does. Married for 11+ years. And dating since we were preteens. It killed whatever made me "want" him. Trapped bc kids. I feel like a fraud. I dont want him to touch me anymore. He swears he doesnt view it anymore. Im sure hes lying. Even if hes not, i just cant.