how to deal with the loneliness of being aroace?
Hi, my name is Ghost. I’m 18, 19 soon. I’ve known I was on the aroace spectrum since I was aorund 13, but I’m apparently more aroace than I thought, since I’ve never actually had a crush on anyone nor felt sexual attraction to them. As for where I fall, I’m ambivalent to both sex and romance, only wanting them under very specific circumstances. I’m also lesbian, if that matters.
I don’t know. I just feel so alone. My friends tell me how they love their partners and I just feel like I’m missing out on something crucial. Although I am aroace, I still yearn for romance and sex, just with the right person. I’m currently indifferent to either, but I still feel like I’m missing something special. I want to make gifts for my girlfriend, I want to go on dates, I want to hold her hand, I want to kiss, I want to lose my virginity.
Like yes, I can satisfy myself sexually but I still feel as though I’m missing part of the experience that so many ppl go crazy out. I feel like my friends are getting partners and having sex and I’m being left behind. I’m gonna be 20 next year and I’m worried I’ll always be alone, still with no girlfriend and still a virgin.
How to deal with this loneliness? A QPR? The last one I attempted to be in was with a person that pushed my boundaries way too soon.
Is being alone, just reading stories of girl love and fanfiction, daydreaming for what could potentially come one day if the chances are right, is that all I have to look forward to as an aroace person?
How to deal with the emptiness that comes with being aroace?