I think I know my type, but I might discover things doing this

^(one of the most contradictory human being out there) ^(- everything that I think will really help you type me is in bold and italic)

✮ Identity ✮
^(I love when everything is structured into lists and groups)

I'm a guy. I study Computational Linguistics and aim at working on language models for healthcare or aerospace.

Sirituality - After considering Christianity as a kid and as an atheist during my teenage years. After being pagan for a short notice, I was brought to Buddhism. I am still learning and getting my practices into place and into a structured routine.

Politics - irl I'm definitely not an activist. On the political compass, I'm like at the very center for literally most subjects on politics. I go by my very own ideals, as I have created my very own political system and constitution. Some of my opinions tend to be very contradictory as I tend to listen to both sides first and make up my decision this way, my opinions are usually lukewarm and tend to look at morals first.. I like debating if it has an end result.

✮ Interests ✮
^(You could skip this part, my broad interest is already a good hint I think lol.)

• Workout, I use weights and I'll try and bulk when I'll be able to change diet.
• Flexibility, I use asanas to build flexibility in my joints and improve balance
• Languages, I speak English and French, I'm still trying to get better at Spanish, Portuguese, Japanese and Mandarin Chinese. I can read Russian, Arabic, Korean and Thai. And I would love to learn those latter languages on top of Pali and Swedish. But I have put on hold language learning for a while, I'm also never satisfied of the method I use; but I'm liking the holistic methodology so far.
• Linguistics, well I majored in this domain. I like analyzing structure
• Programming, I code, I'm creating my own website for which I'm still not satisfied of the design
• Healthcare, before getting into linguistics I studied medicine (anatomy, histology, cytology, physiology...etc) for a year I've only worked in nursing homes so far. I love taking care of people and death is interesting to meditate on, it brings me back to reality
• Astronomy, just got into it not so long ago, so I'm not well versed in it.
• Football, just recently got into, I'm watching the UEFA and Premier League
• Cars and Mechanic, also recently got into it, but I have absolutely no knowledge since my father never taught me about it.
• Martial Arts, I learned some Judo as a kid but forgot about all of it, and I plan on learning Taekwondo or MMA in the far future.
• Fashion, from casual to e-boy, from e-boy to goth, from goth to y2k, from y2k to cyber Y2K with Buddhist material. It was quite a journey of self-discovery jumping between subcultures and interests but since my studies come first I haven't had time and money to spend learning DIY, but I hope I will.
• Urbex and hiking, I love going out and especially in abandoned places though I've visited a few I don't have anyone to go in urbex places anymore.
• Music, music is with Buddhism what speaks the most to me. As much as I'd like to create my own music I'm not creative at all. I mostly listen to witch house and dark trap. But I enjoy listening to
• Cuisine, I love spicy food! Therefore I mostly make Thai, Indian and Southern Chinese dishes. I rarely follow a recipe unless I have to make pastry. And I especially enjoy sharing it with others and showing what I make.
• Digital Art, I rarely draw and when I do, the drawing will never be finished as I'm never satisfied with how it comes out. I'm also barely creative
• Typology, I used to be well versed in typology, I had good knowledge and interpretation on MBTI, Enneagram and their subtypes, Attitudinal Psyche and the Big Five.
• Fortune-telling, I used to learn about palmistry, Saju (Bazi) and rune divination, I stopped for reasons, but might get back into it later on with Shamanism for reasons..

Concerning entertainment, I love medical series, anything that would make me emotional and horror. I don't watch anime or read manga much anymore unless it is Horror Seinen.

✮ Obsessions ✮

My voice and accent I am very self conscious about them and they bring down my confidence

My identity, I'm still trying to figure myself out although I now have a good hunch about who I am

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✮ Relationships ✮

FRIENDS - Deep connection is the most important to me. I have cut every relationship that I used to have from primary to high school as they were one-sided, being the only one putting in effort to see one another was tiring. From college I kept contact with three friends. Online I tend not to have as much feelings and would rather meet irl.

FRIENDS - However I have multiple online friends with whom I have some trust in but will sometimes go MIA when things seem to be falling apart. There have been drama, just like gore I used to nourish from those but I grew out of that.

FAMILY - My mom is very dear to me, and I constantly remind myself on how time flies and I need to value every moment with her. Same with my younger brother although I tend to keep a fatherly figure with him despite my father being present.

LOVE - there are times I am interested in it, and even have crushes with whom I could potentially see spending my life with ; but I always go back to my values on really deep connection especially in love.

My ideal type - they need to be witty, honest, self-aware, authentic and have a strong identity and set values that align mostly with mine. They don't need to be sociable

I've always tended to be the intermediary and trouble-shooter for everything. But when things are getting out of control I'm also losing my shit, leave and close doors.

In discussions, I'm very open to talk about anything, I appreciate talking about taboo subjects as long as it remains respectful. I'm really not reserved either, but I am calm and quiet. I have trouble speaking properly and tend to talk slow.

✮ Struggles ✮

My libido and impulses are a brake to me improving. There are times when it's better but I usually fall back. I'm still holding my libido tightly on certain values I'm affirming on myself

Perfectionist, how many times have I said I am not satisfied in this post? I always want to find a better methodology to do stuff, which makes me redo the exact same thing again. And I also have this ideal of making the most out of my day.
Yet, I'm still quite disorganized

Not grounded, this is not about me daydreaming, I mostly don't unless it's about reminiscing on the way things could have been done or ways things could happen which happen out lout ; most of the time my mind is set into nothingness which are due to remains of a fucked up mental health.
Yet, when in nature or snapping back and not clouded by impulses, I can be very mindful of my surroundings and what is new. My mind goes up and down throughout the day

People pleaser - I tend to comply too much to what people want, and don't always look out at them taking advantage of the situation. I can say yes even if I do not want to

Not creative/imaginative - Despite having many artistic aspirations, I definitely have no imagination to create something new, I take inspirations of artists or write down details of what I want to make that is unique.

Trouble speaking up - there are rare times I will speak up and stand up for myself, most of the time I either don't care or tell myself that I don't.

✮ Strengths ✮

Always smiling - I smile a lot, people tell me I'm a ray of sunshine and make their day (although in selfies I won't be smiling)

Adaptable/Flexible - I don't react much to change, and I can adapt to most situations. At my previous work, I held different job titles and responsibilities with ease.

Competitive - sometimes too much, I love competing with others and see who's better. If I lose I also lose all my confidence and will. If I win I gain in confidence and my work look better this way (improved accent, more details in a program...etc) at which point I might look pedantic

Sensitive - depending on what they expect from an interaction I either hear them out or give advices.

Entrepreneurial - only on dire situation when nobody stepped up.

Relaxed - most of the time I'm just a chill guy and I don't care if we don't conform to a program

✮ Fears ✮

Hornets and wasps, those lil mf*ers.

Biggest fear - not make the most out of my current life, day, capacities and possibilities. I need to show the better version of myself to other and past selves.

Core fear - deceiving others, not be enough, not be myself

✮ Decision-making and Problem-solving ✮

This is a whole mess on its own.

When there is a problem - I look at the current problem, analyze and react. But after things are done I see the flaws on my approach and see many possibilities on the ways I could have solved these.

When there is a decision - I have good intuition on what's the better deal for others. When it's for me, oh hell I don't know what to choose. The bigger the decision that concerns me, the worse my indecision gets

A point on methodology - I love lists, comparisons and grouping (taxonomy)

✮ Situation ✮

Under general/extreme stress - I will be grounded and be hyper-fixated on details

Under emotional stress - I will remain calm until I snap into a possible panic attack

Under negative situation - I will either indulge in it and take pleasure in the pain, or try and ground myself

^(Even if no one try and guess, that post is quite helpful, it's the first time I write such a complete description of myself.)