u/futchtwink

I’m venting vulnerability here bc I can’t think of a better place since my sexuality is t4t. Why do i have so much romantic desire? Why do i have to be so gay? I’m 0 experienced in romantic love but i always fantasize. I genuinely want to be loved by other people and actually connect with them, I can’t put myself in a victim position because I would manifest that, just can’t deny i’m tired

Either a boy, a butch, a futch, fem, any enby, i can love all kinds of genderqueer people. So i have different fantasies, from dating a cute twink to a cool futch, im gay in every way imaginable. I want a cute relationship that doesn’t make sense to gender and the binary, like we are in our own different fairytale world apart from crap, we talk a lot, hold hands and just cuddle, i wanna hold them in my arms , i wanna feel and provide body warmth and safety

I want to be loved for my soul’s transparency even if my body will be adored too i want someone interested in me deeply, i’m bored of life without this type of romanticism. So now I’m tired and bored but i know it will happen when you don’t even think about it. Right now i want to sleep with someone cozy and warm

EDIT: I’m out of negativity now, let’s focus on the positive and feel like we already have all that love in ourselves. Let’s meet people fluently without expectations or control, the feelings of need create resistance with our dreams, we are complete and we deserve all those beautiful relationships

I’m against sex concept just like gender so I don’t conform to neither, also I’m intersex but even if I wasn’t I would be unisex altersex or something like that not conforming to the fake binary sex concept. I really hate when people think about me having a sex… it feels suffocating, don’t analyze or think about my body under those standards, it can’t be defined that way. I have organs, I have hormones and genetical traits, and they don’t align with the “sex” definitions most of people think about, and they mean nothing and say nothing about me so don’t label my body under it

When someone asks me about my sex, about my genitals, or when doctors try to make me fit into a sex is so disgusting to me… do what you want however I never changed a sex cause i never had one, I’m just a human with a body that is part of the huge diversity we can have 🦋💐🕊️🌟🌈 ‘male/female’ is the starting root of our oppression. Of course if a trans person identifies with those there’s no problem for me, but I don’t see myself or other people under those lenses