u/foniliin

I only make $12 an hour, I’ve been trying to find a better job but it really isn’t easy and I have an interview tomorrow for a warehouse job that’s $16 an hour. My plan is to work two jobs. I also donate plasma for extra cash too. Sigh. I have a neighbor who’s older and he speaks to me whenever he sees me. He also knows my financial struggles and that I don’t have insurance so I pay my medicine out of pocket (chronic illness) He is gay which I knew but I never thought he’d hit on me. He zelled me $150 and told me it was for my meds. But he told me I could have another $150 if I gave him a BJ. $300 total which I feel is awful of me if I accept because $300 isn’t enough to throw my dignity away like that and feel shameful for the rest of my life. But I also feel like I’m at a point where I’ll take whatever money. I hate that I am considering it

I am 23. I only have 2 partners and I am also wanting a man who views and takes sex seriously. The guys with 6+ get really excited about me. Super excited. They say I’m a good girl, wife material, and not ran through. But it’s always wild and I start to distance myself upon realizing we will not be a good match, because how are they sneak dissing women with the same count as them? And why do they think they are going to score? I live in a big city so the young city crowd is gonna be how the young city crowd has always been. I have no issues with that. I don’t think anyone with a certain number is worse, less important, etc any of that. That’s a high school way of thinking. I just don’t like the weird energy where it starts to seem like I’m being put on a pedestal for my low number. And vice versa, when the guys get all the sex out of their system and wanna “settle down” with a woman they deem pure. The hell.

I mean there’s nothing I can do about it or anyone can do about it LMAO. I love cars and driving. But I share a car with my roommate so I couldn’t drive to work earlier this morning. It’s 4 minutes away and it’s technically down the street. But when I put the walking route into maps, it turned into a 25 minute walk. It’s infuriating. Got an uber and called it a day. Only spent $5 which was cool.

I’ve always been confused about this. If you like a man and he likes you wants to with you, he expects you to eventually bang him. He isn’t gonna wait until marriage. But if things don’t work out then now as the woman, you have a new “number.” I’m 24 and I have 4 but I’m always lost by what dudes even consider high. Especially since these same guys also love casual sex and hookups.