Separated 9 months and feeling a new transition coming.
I asked my husband to leave after >22 years together 19 years married. He couldn't manage his stress and anxiety which expressed itself in anger he refused to get help. Repeatedly hit children etc. After he slapped my 15yo daughter in the face I asked him to leave. Initially I was euphoric to have peace and freedom from his anger, violence toward our kids and new found peace. I had checked out years ago >10 years but remained faithful. I barely think of him, have no regrets, no bitterness and wish him a full and joyful life etc. Now I am feeling more settled. I have had a few very rewarding and not so rewarding hook ups but nothing serious. I was filled with joy of being single, free etc. However in the last few weeks my mind and heart have begun to consider and imagine the possibility of a new relationship in the future. I feel my mind and heart betraying me and drawing me into this era of wishing for a relationship again. I don't want to feel this way - I remember it from my single years. Any experience or advice?