u/bushroseie

I reported my parents for sexual abuse. Which they all deny and my dad told me I'm lying and that I took it the wrong way. And he would have never let any of this happen but he did.

My dad got a attorney and my mom might lose her job. My dad told me that if I love them I'll say this never happened and then go back to normal. They don't want me to see the school counselor who reported it. Which sucks and there trying to call the school to see if that can happen. The police came to school today and I know it was because of me that freaks me the fuck out.

I'm second guessing everything because my dad told me that this never ever ever happened and that I must've took things the wrong way. My dad said he'll never trust me again or have a relationship with me. And that hurt because he's like my best friend.

He yelled at me and said do you want to see us in jail. And I started dry heaving. Almost choked on my food today because I was so nervous.

This prop makes me a terrible fucking person but I'm not saying it was fake. Everything was real I swear. I have multiple memories and feelings and they affect my present day of life. But I dont want to my parents to go to jail or my mom to lose her job or my brother to get in trouble. I just want to be somewhere safe.

I'm scared my dad will disown me if I tell the truth. He said if I say it again then ill never see my family again.

I don't know how to feel 😕 I just wish my parents never hurt me as a kid. Its nice to see payback but I feel awful. I really want to end it. I can't wait a week to get interviewed.

I reported my parents for sexual abuse. Which they all deny and my dad told me I'm lying and that I took it the wrong way. And he would have never let any of this happen but he did.

My dad got a attorney and my mom might lose her job. My dad told me that if I love them I'll say this never happened and then go back to normal. They don't want me to see the school counselor who reported it. Which sucks and there trying to call the school to see if that can happen. The police came to school today and I know it was because of me that freaks me the fuck out.

I'm second guessing everything because my dad told me that this never ever ever happened and that I must've took things the wrong way. My dad said he'll never trust me again or have a relationship with me. And that hurt because he's like my best friend.

He yelled at me and said do you want to see us in jail. And I started dry heaving. Almost choked on my food today because I was so nervous.

This prop makes me a terrible fucking person but I'm not saying it was fake. Everything was real I swear. I have multiple memories and feelings and they affect my present day of life. But I dont want to my parents to go to jail or my mom to lose her job or my brother to get in trouble. I just want to be somewhere safe.

I'm scared my dad will disown me if I tell the truth. He said if I say it again then ill never see my family again.

I don't know how to feel 😕 I just wish my parents never hurt me as a kid. Its nice to see payback but I feel awful. I really want to end it. I can't wait a week to get interviewed.

Tw: sexual abuse and attempted drowning/ neglect

For context I reported my mom and also kinda my dad for child sexual abuse yesterday. And my counselor is going to email my therapist and then take it from there and report it to cps or maybe she already reported but idk.

I was talking to my counselor today about my brother COCSA me when I was 6 and she asked if my therapist called home when I told her. And I was like no and it made me wonder like why didn't my therapist call home or do anything?

To my knowledge my therapist hasn't reported any of the abuse I tell her. I know sometimes she takes notes and write stuff down but there probably just used for records. About 2 months ago I reported to my therapist the sexual abuse I went through. She wrote down stuff but she didn't take it as seriously as I wish she did. She just said it was a inappropriate interaction and that was it. Even though I told her that though me being pressured to do sexual acts(we were all fully clothed) is over im still being touched inappropriately and sexualized.

I feel like more could've been done instead of her just sending me home and not speaking to any of my parents, I know thats easier said that done I just feel like she could've done more or atleast reported instead of sending me back home. When I have told her many times I feel unsafe at home?

I told her about my brother trying to drown me when I was 5 infront of a adult who didn't care. And when I told my mom she laughed at me. My therapist took it seriously but I feel like thats such a serious thing and should've been reported escp because its causing me to having extreme mental breakdowns and traumatic flashbacks. She doesn't really take that seriously.

I have talked about how i'm still being neglected and abused and yet nothing has happened. Am I in the right or am I expecting too much? I apologize for the rant.

Today I reported the years of sexual abuse I went through from ages 6-12 to my school counselor. And now my school counselor going to report it to cps and cps has to decide to pick up my case or not. I have no idea if they will.

Having to act normal to my parents is making me so nervous because what if cps or a social worker comes by or something and what if they decide to investigate my parents, or my parents guilt trip me and make me feel terrible. I don't know much about cps so I'm probably really wrong but will they give a heads up incase they visit home or like call my parents?

I feel like a terrible child for ratting my parents out like that. Having to act normal while they have no idea I reported them to cps makes my stomach hurt.

I feel dumb because I always wanted cps to come but now I reported it feels wrong and I regret doing it because people on a previous post told me I'm in danger and I need to report. I felt brave and I reported but I'm really scared now.

I'm scared of cps just not picking up my case or the end result is disappointing 😕. Anyway I propaply should've just been quiet.

So for context my mom is very weirdly sexual to me escp as a kid. I knew what sex was when I was 6 because she would talk and ask other adults about their sex lives infront of me while I'm sitting right next to her.

1. she would undress in front of me when I was 7 and when I said I want to leave she would say its fine because we're both girls. She would then make comments about how im going to get breasts like her and weird comments like this. She would tell me to watch her and when I looked away she would pressure me to watch her. I made it clear I was uncomfortable but It didn't matter because we're both girls.

2. My mom sa'd my dad infront of me from ages 6-12 she stopped when I started my period.They were fully clothed though, but my mom would hump my dad crotch and grind against him forcefully. And my dad would beg her to stop and not to do this infront of me but she would laugh and say I dont care. She would moan and say my name while humping my dads lap telling me my dad feels good. She would invite me to join in and would even get up and point at my dads lap.

3. I refused because even as a kid I knew it was wrong and I was like wtf. One time i did join in and I grinded against my dad's lap as my mom clapped and cheered me on while my dad told me to get off and stop.

4. 2 years back my mom talked about her sex life infront of me to my hairstylist. And when I said I heard that. She continued and went into detail I didn't need to know

5. when I was in 5th grade my mom sat me and my brother down. And I thought my mom was finially going to have the talk with us because she never taught us sex ed. She explained what rape was and then the exact next sentence. She said "I had sex with your dad last week" I was so confused.

6. she humiliates my dad and calls his penis small and make crude remarks about his privates and when he gets upset she laughs and says she can do whatever she wants.

I don't have any boundaries in my house because my mom doesn't care and will forcefully hug me and etc. My brother COCSA me when I was 6 and he was 9.

I know my dad has been sexually assaulted but idk if what I went through is sa? Btw im a minor