Torn between my passion and my parents' desire
To get straight into it, I'm a second year college student in both English literature and engineering majors.
English lang isn't my first, not even my second language.
My passion for it drove me to learn the language on my own a couple of years ago and my love for it only got bigger and bigger over time.
I find utmost joy and fun speaking with foreigners (on some apps) and practicing the language on a daily basis.
My parents want me to be engineer but i despise this major and my hatred for its details is just beyond words.
It feels now like I'm walking on 2 ropes but i will have to get off one of them.
One of the main reason i decided to study English lit at uni besides the engineering is that i knew back then, that a day would come when I'd have to stick to one path and let go of the other.
I haven't opened up to my parents coz i can imagine what their reaction would be already.. and that literature can no longer pay well and stuff.
Meanwhile in my head, I've set a full plan of how i want things to go, i mean, it's my passion, i can acquire wayyy more freedom in literature than i can in engineering.
I can diversify my streams of income, it's 2026 already.
I can start posting on social media platforms, a YouTube channel and this alone can be enough in long run, i can start giving private classes after building a fan base.. i can be a traditional teacher or even a translator.
I will focus on improving people's speaking skills instead of grammar and boring rules.. which is far more enjoyable and fun than traditional teaching ..
Plus, the idea of 9 to 5 job in engineering doesn't sound enjoyable to me ngl.
AND I'd rather persue my passion with freedom and a normal income, than get trapped in a 9 to 5 job like a slave with double the income of literature.
I'm aware i can make a lot more money than engineering in the long run but I'm not in a rush.
And very soon I'm getting to a point of no return...
I either grasp what i aspire to or fall into the unknown.