u/adrianavamps143

Is this trait inherent in a person and is pre determined or can it change over time?

Personally I think I was born a complete extrovert. I loved talking(a lot) with family, friends, and I had no problem talking to strangers or any person of any age group.

I did go through a lot of traumatic experiences ever since I could remember ( e.g. being slut-shamed for talking to male adults, scolded for being too friendly, was told that I'm getting myself kidnapped by inviting strangers, that I'm too obnoxious, nosy, unlikeable, etc by my own family members). These are just some of it, but yeah.

Fast forward to 20 years from then, now I'm an adult who don't want to socialize, I can't stay in the same group setting for too long( like leaving or cutting off a circle after leaving high school, college, etc.), I no longer have the same desires or the social skills that I was born with.

Whenever I get absorbed completely into a group activity and finally go with the flow or vibe, I almost immediately snap out of it and go back to my usual sad little self. It's not really something that I decide but it happens instinctively. It's as if my body or mind refuses to let loose even for a bit.

Because honestly I do this a lot and I can absolutely sob my eyes out and it makes me wonder if I'm crazy?? Like am I that eager to be sad that I have to make up hypothetical situations to cry about 😭??! And I don't think about it, like it just happens and then I realise that it's not true at all and I come back to my senses. Do I need help?