u/Warm_Newspaper894

I had to go without three days recently without my antidepressants. I had massive withdrawal symptoms so bad, I went to the ER.

I had a massive migraine that I could barely keep my eyes open through the pain, my stomach was bloated and had reccuring sharp stomach pains and I kept needing to use the restroom and had really bad nausea.

The people at the ER were lovely and were very understanding and helping. I eventually had the pleasure of getting my first ever IV.

At that moment, I was suddenly exposed to how fragile life was and how much it takes to stay alive.

...I just wanted to end it.

I was just tired. I barely put any work into my life and basically rot mostly in bed.

Actually remembering I'm human and not just floating through life was...eye opening.

(Reason: my new doctor upped my dosage in person in our last appointment, but didn't update my records or let the pharmacy know). (Medication; Duloxetine 60mg)

I've been called that since I was young. I lack a filter.

If someone is arguing with me and starts saying something different than what they told me, my mouth would open. I would CORRECT them.

I couldn't control it.

I would remember when they didn't, and I couldn't stop the truth from coming out of my mouth.

Multiple times I would get called this from my parents and get yelled at, with me choking back words and tears stinging my eyes.

It felt like everyday, I take a truth serum. I can't stop it.

I still have troubles to this day, but my sister tries to step in sometimes. ...it's better because my dad has gotten older with worse hearing, too.

I'd literally just want to read, okay video games, or watch TV in my room and eat snacks. Literally anything else than wanting to have sex. 😂

I had a recent trip to the ER recently, and they thought I could be pregnant.

...I literally went there for withdrawal symptoms from my antidepressants.

I had to use the restroom, and a nurse (not my assigned nurse) wanted a urine sample while I'm at it. I did it, not expecting them to use it for a pregnancy test.

They literally wasted their resources and time by running the test.

When my nurse said that it came back negative (of course) my dad said I was on birth control. *It's for my hormonal acne. But the way he said it made it seem like I was, "Getting some."

...I'm literally at home 24/7 and if I'm not, I'm working.

When he said that to my nurse, I said quietly, "Well of course it will be negative...I don't view anyone like that." Both the nurse and my dad didn't say anything.

I really do wish asexuality and the right to be celibate was more accepted.

This experience just made the feeling of being an outcast for not wanting sex, to be pregnant, or be in a relationship with anyone.

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Anyone else have these random involuntary jolts from their leg?

I get them when I lay/sit down, and my leg randomly twitches/jolts on its own. Sometimes its my shoulder, and once it was my back.

It might be due to me having mild scoliosis, mild arthritis (right knee), PFPS (patellafemoral pain syndrome) in both knees, and fibromyalgia.

My physical therapist told me it might be due to my back issues causing the jolting, but told me it's only serious if I can't walk on my bad leg (my right leg).

Welp...sometimes I randomly can't.

It happens rarely, but it's happened a couple times.

Does anyone else have nightmares caused by stress and depression??

I've gotten really bad ones recently, the most vivid of dreams and nightmares.

It's been going on for the past 2-4 weeks.

It keeps happening, and I'm tired of it.

I just want normal dreams again without it being a nightmare and I want to wake up without remembering my dream.

I got told this by my (ex)friend months ago...and I'm still not over it.

They actually said to me, "You only talk about your mental health. I don't even know what to talk about with you anymore because you talk about your depression all the time. And you never took my advice." (This was my friend of like 8-9 years...).

It freaking hurt.

They played it off for months like everything was fine, but what they said kept hurting me all over again. Every waking moment I thought about it.

I shut down a lot.

Eventually I broke off our friendship because I realized I was giving way too much of myself, and I needed to put a barrier.

Has anyone else been told this by someone else?

It was really hurtful receiving that text, and it still hurts.

I've always have.

I've always felt like I was ugly.

I was that quiet girl who barely had any friends, and who didn't know how to socialize.

I've had depression for many years.

I've only had chronic pain for two years (maybe 4).

And now, I hate my body even more.

If I stand up, I'm in pain.

If I lay down, I'm in pain.

If I exist, I'm in pain.

I'm so tired. I feel useless.

As I type this, I'm laying down in bed.

I've done nothing, but my legs are in pain.

Sometimes, I kind of wish they were gone.

Most times, I wish I was gone.

I've been really struggling to get myself to do my physical therapy exercises, lately.

I never really got into them. I'm self conscious because the people on the cover are older people (my sis and mom joked that it's "old people exercises").

It makes me self conscious because they're the same exercises I have to do, but the age that they're for is way different. I'm 22, and the people in the pictures are like 70 years old.

I know that doing the exercises should be good for me (my PT told me that) but something is still stopping me from doing them. I also really want to lose weight and maybe walk outside to burn some fat.

Does anyone else have their own version of what to do to get past this and exercise more?

I've always, since forever, struggled how to lie.

I would struggle to force out a lie when I had to. It left a bad taste in my mouth to lie and made me feel awful.

I struggle with it in public, especially with trying not to spill my guts and over share to random people. Even strangers.

I'm 22, and I recently found out how to slightly fib/lie. I work in retail, and my social skills were non existent since I was a kid.

Now I follow a script in my brain and now I can actually talk to customers and converse with them and lie when need be.

I also use the script in my brain when I need to talk to people outside of work.

If the person goes off script I feel awful and anxious. I also have extreme troubles controlling my emotions on my face. I've been told many times to control my facial expressions in public, but I find it extremely hard. Does anyone else feel like this?