u/StatusPsychological7

I cant deal with this anymore. It causes impairment on my life to the point i avoid social interactions or going outside. I have major fatigue, feeling everyday this pain everytime i see my face, everytime i remind myself that this is my life now makes me want to give on everything altogether. My sleep isnt best too, everything sucks. I try to focus on my work, my routine everyday but those dysphoric thoughts, self resignation it doesnt go away. I cry most of my days, its no way to live.

Hi

I started playing tbc lately but whats the point if i cant see other players due to layering? I'm literally feeling like i play single player game. I typed /who and there's bunch of people in zones but I simply cant see them.

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It kills me inside. Every day I’m filled with grief. I don’t even know what it feels like to be normal anymore. Half a year ago, things seemed to be getting better, and then I got sick, and now I feel like it’s worse than ever.

I haven’t had a day without crying for the last three months. I don’t even want to leave my room anymore. I try to find distractions, but they don’t seem to work anymore.

I have a loving girlfriend, and I feel like I’m hurting her by being like this. I feel like a black hole of grief and sadness that destroys everything in its path. I miss the feeling when everything seemed to be getting better, like I had some hope. Nowadays, it’s all gone.

I hate myself. I can’t even look in the mirror anymore. Everything got worse for no reason at all. I’m spiraling every day. I’m emotionally unstable, and I don’t even know how long this can go on. I feel physically sick because of what’s been happening to me lately.