u/Spiritual-Badass

No plan. No idea what the goal was. No purpose. Just wanted to get outside & make something after a mental health crisis last month.

No plan. No idea what the goal was. No purpose. Just wanted to get outside & make something after a mental health crisis last month.

This is really my first time ever posting my “art” after some struggles with imposter syndrome.

Last month I had a nice little inpatient stay after “an attempt” and honestly hadn’t touched any of my art supplies (or really anything in my studio) for months so it actually felt nice to get outside again, get messy slinging paint, and just breathe some fresh air (well, aside from spray paint 😂) I had to force myself to do this but I’m glad I did.

I have no idea what I was trying to accomplish as I didn’t think it through before I started (on purpose), but looking back on it I like to think the spots of black symbolize my depression always trying to creep in, yet also maintaining my colorful and expressive personality😊 I refuse to give in now that I’m finally getting some color back in my life.

u/Spiritual-Badass — 20 hours ago
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Just a few “classics” and/or “must read” books that I saved from the dumpster when the school board decided to “censor” their reading material 🤦🏻‍♂️

Years ago I worked as a janitor for a public high school when the school board decided to “censor” a lot of their literature 🤦🏻‍♂️ They did add a Bible class so I guess they balanced it out 🤢 We were tasked with going through EVERY English/Lit class and the library and throwing out the books that were on the list. I tried to save what I could (which is why I have multiples of some) and this is only maybe 50% of what we threw out. As a book lover I was heartbroken!! I also gave away a bunch of them. I had my car LOADED by the end of my shift. I live in a small conservative town in the south so I was honestly shocked that I didn’t get in trouble for “stealing” but they were going to the dump soooo 🤷🏻‍♂️

Granted, there are a few of my own that were mixed in too (ie The Exorcist & Hunger Games 😂) but MOST pictured are from the school.

u/Spiritual-Badass — 22 hours ago
🔥 Hot ▲ 862 r/oldhagfashion

Found this spicy GORGEOUS duster at a yardsale for $10 and could NOT pass it up!! Not feeling the best mentally today so excuse the “blahness” of my face 😂 2nd photo of the stunning back!

Hello you beautiful creatures!! I hope you’re having a fabulously amazing day because you deserve it!!! Honestly, I’ve been struggling mentally/emotionally but fashion is one of my outlets so I always feel a little better when I look pretty 😂

Remember, you are stronger than you realize & more capable than you know. Today may suck but tomorrow is a new day. The storm doesnt last forever friends. Love y’all!!

For those who don’t know me, HI! I’m a queer hippie exchristian farmer living in the Bible Belt of rural Tennessee 😊Just here to spread some positivity & kindness while showing off my fun wardrobe! 💜

u/Spiritual-Badass — 22 hours ago
🔥 Hot ▲ 1.2k r/crochet

Baby blanket - one of the first things I made for my sister/niece. She put it in a yard sale within a year so I BOUGHT it back🤦🏻‍♂️ That was 5 years ago & I’m still mad about it 😂

Yup, I literally bought it back even though I made the damn thing! I made it big enough that it could be used as she grew and figured she’d outgrow it within five years, but she didn’t even keep it for a full year and she KNEW I made it. I made sure it wasn’t too big or heavy for an infant though. I literally looked up measurements and weight suggestions to make sure.

Although, she’s never been sentimental and gets rid of tons of stuff that she’s been given. It took me months to make this bc I was still learning and slow but thought it would be an item she could appreciate. Guess not 🤷🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️

u/Spiritual-Badass — 23 hours ago

Before I quit TikTok for my sanity 😂 I’ve made other posts here saying I do, in fact, wear camo/hats, but there’s two sides to every story 💜 (two photos)

For context, I’m a queer hippie non-binary ex-Christian farmer living in the south so I kinda get the best of both worlds!! I was gonna post the actual video then realized I couldn’t lol. It was just a generic transition video so I took screenshots instead 😊 Love y’all!!!!!

u/Spiritual-Badass — 23 hours ago
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The first DK book I ever read & still my favorite. Which book is your favorite? What did you think about Phantoms? 😊

This was the book that got me into Koontz so maybe that’s why it’s my favorite 😊 I now own a HUGE collection of DK paperbacks but there are a few I haven’t read even though I’m sure they’re great. Watchers is one of those. I recently saw a few “top ten” lists for him and Watchers seemed to be in the top two or three or multiple lists so I thought I’d check it out. Just started it about a week ago but haven’t had time much to get into it. I live on a farm so there’s always lots to do! lol.

What did you think about Phantoms?

u/Spiritual-Badass — 24 hours ago

At this point I just scroll past/actively avoid the “news” and anything political. My brain is just at a bursting point.

For context, I’m a queer hippie white male American so that should sum it up 😂

I used to somewhat partake in the news as I liked to be informed, but lately I just have to actively avoid it. My dad looooves watching the news daily all day long and he knows when I’m visiting that we have to watch The Golden Girls instead 😂

Part of my brain tells me I’m just a weak p*ssy, but the other part of my brain has literally just shut down it seems. Sadly, I think this is what “the establishment” is trying to accomplish. To get us so overwhelmed that we’re numb and just stop caring. I’ve even stopped watching my favorite creators who simply summarize important points/news as even that has become too much.

The intention behind this post is NOT to be political as I see both sides/parties as coming from the same root problem. I don’t consider myself one or the other and have huge issues with both. Obviously, I lean towards one side lol but Please keep the comments civilized. This is not meant to be a right vs left debate or anything. However, if the mods deem this post as problematic please remove.

I know I’m not the only person who’s gotten to this point. What coping mechanisms do you implement when it comes to “news fatigue”? Do you avoid it all together or have you found a way around it in a healthy manner? Thanks friends!!

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u/Spiritual-Badass — 1 day ago
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The Blackening - I f*ckin love this film!! (Discussion, but used the Spoiler Alert tag just in case)

I saw this kept popping up a few years back as “recommended” so I finally watched it and I think I’ve seen it maybe four times now 😂

As a queer person, it always makes me roll my eyes at how the “stereotypical” characters are killed off first. Normally because of their own stupidity/lack of common sense. “Let’s split up”, “let’s go investigate the dark basement”, “let me go check out that noise alone w/o a weapon”, etc. Whether it’s the typical stoner, the big boob blonde, the black character, or (rarely even included until recent years) the gay character. Something about this movie just had me cheering for each of them as they fought back!!

The way they wrapped up the horror element with the comedy aspect of it was genius in my opinion. It was scary, but still funny as hell in parts.

I mostly wanted this to be a general discussion, but did use the Spoilers tag just in case since the film came out in 2022 so read the comments at your own discretion, but also be mindful that some here may not have seen it yet 😊

What did you think of this film?

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u/Spiritual-Badass — 1 day ago

The Blackening - I f*ckin LOVE this film!!! (Mostly “Discussion”, but tagged spoilers just in case)

I saw this kept popping up a few years back as “recommended” so I finally watched it and I think I’ve seen it maybe four times now 😂

As a queer person, it always makes me roll my eyes at how the “stereotypical” characters are killed off first. Normally because of their own stupidity/lack of common sense. “Let’s split up”, “let’s go investigate the dark basement”, “let me go check out that noise alone w/o a weapon”, etc. Whether it’s the typical stoner, the big boob blonde, the black character, or (rarely even included until recent years) the gay character. Something about this movie just had me cheering for each of them as they fought back!!

The way they wrapped up the horror element with the comedy aspect of it was genius in my opinion. It was scary, but still funny as hell in parts.

I mostly wanted this to be a general discussion, but did use the Spoilers tag just in case so read the comments at your own discretion, but also be mindful that some here may not have seen it yet 😊

What did you think of this film?

u/Spiritual-Badass — 1 day ago

Hey fam! Officially quit last month after a mental health inpatient visit w/detox meds, but the emotional/mental “lack of joy” is just destroying me.

I know, these damn things don’t give you REAL joy but I always felt so motivated, happier, and in a much better mood. Now I’m just blah. I find it hard to do anything. Even getting out of bed is sometimes a struggle. For context, I already struggle with my mental health which is the main reason it’s been so damn hard to quit this junk. I always think, “If this is what I’m gonna feel like without them, then I don’t thjnk I can do it.” So then I go back to it and it seems to be a Neverending cycle. I’ve stuck with it so far and I’m HOPING that this fog will pass and that I’ll eventually get back to normal, but it just sucks. Getting some of them literally crosses my mind every damn day, multiple times so it takes everything I have to not go. I’m sure this is probably PAWS, but interested to hear about others experiences with this. Thanks!! 😊

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u/Spiritual-Badass — 2 days ago

1. Pick your slasher film/villain -then- 2. Pick your weapon of choice that you have to use the entire film

I tried searching for this particular post & couldn’t really find it so hopefully this isn’t a recent repeat lol. If it is, please forgive me and delete.

But yeah, pick your villain then pick your weapon. However, it has to be the same weapon throughout the entire film (other than hand-to-hand combat without a weapon) but no switching it up lol.

The more creative, the better 😊

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u/Spiritual-Badass — 2 days ago