u/SeaworthinessGlad640

Ok so I'm sorry if this bores you but I have been wanting to let it out, I am so overwhelmed with joy lately.

It's a strange feeling for me, to be finally content and at peace in life.

I've always been the lover girl and what I mean by this is I've wanted someone to be there for me as I would be there for them. I never wanted to be alone, maybe it's because I grew up alone wanting friends or any kind of company or whatever might be the reason, I just knew I wanted my person to navigate through life.

Till junior school I was the ugly and weird kid so no chance there, then I changed school for high school and then I had my first boyfriend, he was sweet but we were so so different, intellectually, emotionally it was no match and I feel bad that I said yes in a haste just because I thought that I could love him if he says he already does. I won't say he pressured me into that relationship because I could have said no but I was so naive and so desperate to be loved.

It got so draining for me eventually and it broke off, after that I was a bit more mature than before, I had few online friends which I vibed with but it wasn't in real life and it nagged me, I wanted a physical presence of someone whom I care about not just words over texts.

So whatever situation ships I had they weren't it.

Then came the great disaster, I fell in love. I ofcourse had crushes before but this was the strongest one. I became so naive, it's a long story but the conclusion is that man was a narcissist, egoistic womaniser and I was a fool in love.

I confessed and he led me on, all he cared about was getting it and there I was very blindly ignoring all the red flags and showering love over him. He got annoyed obviously and told me I am too good for him and blah blah and left oh and btw he forgot my birthday and when I was obviously upset he said that it's not that much of a big deal. It took some time, it felt like eternity but yeah somehow got over that too.

(the good part is there I promise, just hang on a little longer)

My faith in love was shaken at this point and then this man was there. It is so surreal, he's so surreal. He was there in high school, he says he had a crush on me but I was committed at that time so he didn't say anything and then later he had a girlfriend as well so werent in touch, if I were to confess I was drawn towards him the moment I saw him, we're from the same ethnicity and someone who was bullied for looking a certain was I was so confused whether to befriend him because it felt so easy to be or avoid him completely so that people won't stereotype us, also he was such a sunshine, making friends so easily and I was literal opposite of him so I chose the second option.Then me met so unexpectedly after almost 2 years and I felt it deep deep in my bones that he's going to be it, sounds dramatic but being in his presence felt like finally being back home after wandering for eternity. All the time when I felt I was being too much or that people will find this or that annoying, there's no more of that, he's my person and everything fits so beautifully as if it was supposed to be. I am not a believer but how could anything like him not be divine.

He brings the most joyous of me, I am always in awe.

His love feels like a caress, not uncertain not demanding just a warm comfortable embrace.

I've always dreamt my life with a family and my own little house, have always been the dream and now there's someone who shares that dream with me.

I feel so privileged to have this man in my life.

Life rocks<3

Happy friday my loves, might be only me but I realised that scented body products are overhyped and not really worth the money. I splurged a lot on extravagant smelling body lotions and body washes and after a point it got overwhelming, I know they are good for layering combos but also the fragrance becomes too much sometimes and I'd rather have a non scented or mildly scented shower products and then use the perfume of my choice later if I feel like it.

Also the smell doesn't even last that long.

So I'll be using those dove body washes from now on, no bbw or nykka ones, and for body lotions sticking to oh nivea or vaseline.🧴🫧

Happy friday my loves, might be only me but I realised that scented body products are overhyped and not really worth the money. I splurged a lot on extravagant smelling body lotions and body washes and after a point it got overwhelming, I know they are good for layering combos but also the fragrance becomes too much sometimes and I'd rather have a non scented or mildly scented shower products and then use the perfume of my choice later if I feel like it.

Also the smell doesn't even last that long.

So I'll be using those dove body washes from now on, no bbw or nykka ones, and for body lotions sticking to oh nivea or vaseline.🧴🫧