u/Responsible_Hall_471

It seems like every culture has their own sling or wrap or carrier for their young but I've never seen anything from West Europe? Which is a bit baffling to me because it's such a simple and convenient concept, especially for working moms.

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I have a hypothesis that that's why it didn't become popular in America until more recent years. since no settlers brought that culture over and I know that slaves did wrap their babies but maybe that practice was lost while trying to assimilate into White American culture?

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keep in mind I'm hypothesizing and jumping to conclusions so please be sure to share your knowledge if I'm wrong

I was sexually abused from the ages of 4-10, off and on by a few different people. this, combined with unrestricted internet access led to hypersexuality. I started masturbating when I was about 11, using anything and everything that I could find. markers, hairbrushes, etc. it always hurt but I figured if I kept going, it would eventually feel good. spoiler alert, it never does. I just keep going until my cunt bleeds. im 15 now and still doing this shit. anywhere from 2–5 times a week, with periods of abstinence in between. im both terrified and fascinated by penetration. I don't think I can cum from penetrative sex (many females can't actually) so I know I'm only doing it for the pain and out of habit. I can masturbate normally, as in with a vibrator, but even then I'll go until my clit aches (not in a positive way). I've chalked it up to a fetish thing but I know deep down that it isn't. I also have (occasionally violent) sexual intrusive thoughts. I don't know what to do really. because every resource about unhealthy masturbation is focused on males and I feel like I'm the only person to ever do this shit. it's so over for me

I have constant sexual intrusive thoughts as a side effect of sexual abuse when I was very young. I've made peace with this and I can mostly ignore them. I write as a hobby and sometimes project my intrusive thoughts there (in the form of erotica or horror usually). but I never talk about this. is it healthy to keep this buried? I'm scared to tell a therapist because my parents don't know I was abused

I haven't seen a set fashion associated with it. I've sorta just assumed that riot girl fashion is kinda up to date with modern trends but in a stylized and eclectic way. like upcycling, thrifting, working with what you have,yk?