u/Responsible-Farm5928

I'm 25F. I'm adopted so I'm not related to my apptive parents at all. Anyways, I have body dysmorphia and disordered eating. I'm very frustrated with my weight, I'm 5'2 and been stuck at this overweight for 7yrs since college. I should be whatever is normal for that height and I'm over that. Others would say ik buff and muscle, but I know I have fat that needs to come off.

I've always been like this, since I was 9yo. In PE they told me I was fat on the scale, even tho I was tall and lengthy for my age. Then my aunt said I should loose weight. I told my mom I wanted to and the disordered eating began. All of middle school I'd eat only like two meals while doing sports. And then after weeks I'd quit, eat it all back. High school was a bit better, but was on an elite sports team and worked out 9x a week so I was better at what I ate.

Then college I totally fell off, gained freshman 15 throughout my 4yrs and I feel fat.

This is affecting my dating and my self imagage. I've never gotten help

Here's the thing that fed this... My father has anorexia that he won't diagnose. He's so skinny and blames it or rather supports it cuz he was a marathon runner for 30yrs. He barely eats for what a man of 5'10 should. He's picky as all get out and doesn't like to eat Infront of strangers. And that's been my base marker my entire life.

I feel fat when I order something normal and he orders a small salad. I look huge when I stand next to him since he's skin and bones. I don't want to sound mean, I worry for him, but also I'm infuriated with.

I've always felt fat, esp growing up 2000s and I'm gay and masc so I never fit in anyways. I feel so helpless.

I've really struggled my whole life with my weight, even though most people would not call me fat at all.

When I was 9 I was 80lbs and the school said I was fat, I was long and lengthy and athletic as all the boys.

I used to be on an elite sports team practicing 9x a week in HS and continue to do that sport into adulthood, at a lesser level. I still workout and gym 6x a week give or take.

I've always been heavier, but the past 7yrs since starting college I've gained 20lbs.

I'm a 5'2 masc and weigh 146-151lbs. I need to be 120-130 😭

I'm so self conscious and I attribute my lack of girls and dating history to my weight.

I never feel hot in my outfits when going out, I always look at myself in the mirror and go ew you're fat in XYZ area.

I'm trying to have more confidence but my disordered eating, sleep, and work schedule don't always help.

I really want that cut, clean, muscle look, like a guy.

Like shud I get a dietician or like? How can I get girls? Any advice, sorry this topic.

I'm masc androgenous and I've always struggled with confidence. I have body dysmorphia and have been playing around with being NB. But I'm so sick of being rejected over and over and too scared to approach the girls I like and find attractive.

I've always tried to play the nice guy, not wanting to impose myself on people, and waiting to be chosen. Clearly that's not working.

Fuck it imma have a hoe era! Fuck it! Confidence! 💪🤌😎

I'm masc androgenous and I've always struggled with confidence. I have body dysmorphia and have been playing around with being NB. But I'm so sick of being rejected over and over and too scared to approach the girls I like and find attractive.

I've always tried to play the nice guy, not wanting to impose myself on people, and waiting to be chosen. Clearly that's not working.

Fuck it imma have a hoe era! Fuck it! Confidence! 💪🤌😎