It's 3:35am and I've been up all night scrolling despite being so sleepy
I'm just so full of anger and rage about this world especially about patriarchy and misogyny
I can't seem to relax and just feel really awful. I'm probably PMSing too period is coming up in a few days and I have a lot of mental health issues and idk I'm just really really sad in a way words can't describe
help :( I feel so alone
And who don't interpret Islam as putting men above women? where are they?
also I'm not talking about westernized Muslim men who barely even know about Islam but the ones who are intentional and care about the teachings of Islam too
I know they're out there somewhere but I have yet to meet one lol. Even the more decent ones still have some ingrained values or mindset about it, in my experience :/
I'm just curious..I've never posted on this sub before. The past year or so I've been confronting and questioning things related to patriarchy, misogyny and historical and societal subjugation of women. And I have had so many misogynistic encounters from Muslim men it's unbelievably heartbreaking, especially when I try to fully confront within myself that they were not just "how things are" but deeply rooted in harmful, false narratives.
I grew up Muslim and I have been having doubts sometimes about Islam, however the more progressive interpretation of Islam makes more sense to me + more humane. I'm still exploring but yeah. I'm just wondering
I completed one full month (April) with no added sugar :)
(Although, there were a few times I had a few grams of added sugar I wasn't aware of, and one time when I was in the hospital, but I still count as having completed it. My main problem/bad habit was snacking on sweet treats after dinner, which I hadn't done at all in April :)
I feel good! I want to continue through May too. Possibly June, but for now focusing on May. I tried a "no-added sugar" for a month 2 years ago too but when the month I ended I slowly went back to eating it since I didn't have a plan to continue, I just wanted to try it for a month. But this time around I want to continue.
I noticed that it was much easier this time around. When I did it 2 years ago it was hard, I think mostly because I didn't realize how much added sugar is sneaked into so many things we consume. Had to do a lot of constant monitoring. It went by more smoothly this time around, but I'm also learning to not beat myself up over if something has a few added grams that I wasn't aware of or won't significantly impact my journey.
Anyway, I think I wanna celebrate! Any ideas on how to celebrate this milestone (without added sugar)? Lol
I'm just wondering about this. I was thinking about how I used to have a male friend who I talked with about many social issues such as racism, political corruption etc and he was very responsive and enthusiastic, but got uncomfortable when I brought up issues about societal mistreatment of women. I'm no longer talking to him for a different reason but I remembered that it always rubbed me the wrong way how he was so passionate talking against racism but started getting uncomfortable when issues that women face were being brought up, and often just brought up issues that men face instead of engaging with the topic.
I haven't met too many men who are comfortable about this and fully acknowledge these issues such as patriarchy, misogyny, etc. (or maybe I just haven't talked with men about these things that much) But I have met some. And it's very refreshing. I recently met an autistic guy who brought up how girls are often underdiagnosed (he thinks I might be on the spectrum but that's a different topic) but it was refreshing to see him actually bringing that up even unprompted. And I met another dude some weeks ago who was able to talk about patriarchy/misogyny in a way that just felt natural and comfortable. Like he had even more stuff to say about patriarchy than me in certain areas.
Although I am also aware that some men may say things like this to women only and then stay silent or even say contradictory things around their male friends. So I try to be wary of that too.
But what do you think? If you felt like, whether with a male friend or romantic partner, that they weren't comfortable around this topic or try to avoid it or bring up men's issues, do you think it's a red flag and would it affect your connection? Would you point out their discomfort/confront them or try to change their perspective? Or would you just quietly distance yourself, or just let it go and continue talking?
Curious to hear your thoughts
Yesterday I was joking around with someone and my sense of humor is more abstract and about random things but it seemed he was leaning more into teasing (directed at me) + sarcasm. At first I tried to play along but it got to a point where I genuinely felt uncomfortable and even a little upset. I tried to steer it in a different direction but he kept milking the jokes so much. I didn't say anything afterwards though.
I've just been sort of less engaging because I feel awkward but if I say anything I'm worried I'll get called too sensitive. since I've been less talkative he asked if I'm okay and said to let him know if I wanna talk and I just said thank you but I didn't say anything else. Btw I am in therapy and I've been told I might be on the spectrum. Idk how to navigate situations like this and I just freeze up.
Yesterday at the grocery store a dude was trying to talk to me, he told me I'm pretty and I just said thank you and then he asked if I'm single, I said "I'm not looking thank you" (I am single but didn't wanna say)
I feel like that was a weird way to respond but it was like the immediate response I had. I just wanted it to be over quickly. I'm extremely awkward though. What do you think 😭
To preface this I am working with a DBT therapist and working on my BPD symptoms, I don't understand if I'm just a very different type, but I really don't understand people talking about how people with BPD are abusers, manipulators, groomers, etc. I seriously do not understand. I'm moreso quiet/discouraged type I don't know if that makes such a drastic difference but I really have such a hard time understanding why people think about BPD as being monsters. I don't know if it's just being amplified by a certain loud few or what.
I'm literally just so...isolated. I barely talk to people. I've never even been in a real relationship and I'm 28 f. I am honestly terrified of people. I did have a few on-and-off online "relationships" years ago but I was the one in the more submissive position too scared to speak my true mind and still working on it. I'm also extremely careful I don't want to hurt people like people say they have to walk on eggshells around someone with BPD but I honestly feel I have to walk on eggshells around everyone like that's my default.
I really don't understand why people see BPD in such a horrific way almost like we're psychopaths when I feel like that couldn't be farther from the truth. It makes me cry when I see stuff like that written about us. I also have OCD and a bunch of other issues and I've often guilt-tripped myself into thinking I might have NPD, or that I'm going to Hell, and worse things. I've had to remind myself countless times that if I care this much I'm probably not that.
I just don't understand, and I'm really really upset and frustrated about this.