u/Old-Guest-5688

Other than YouTube i dont use anything, I became a ghost since 2016😅

Kam nje te aferm qe humbi funksionin e njerit krah ne korrik, e cuan ne Maqedoni I ben gjilpera nuk i bene efekt, e cuan ne tirane I thane merreni ne shtepi kaloni kohe sa eshte gjalle nuk e morem shume seriozisht se ajo ishte aktive ,mbillte perime e rriste gjedhe ,tashme ka humbur funksionin e krahut tjeter ka veshtirsi ne ecje, po mendohesha ku e kisha degjuar si semundje dhe po shihja serine Euphoria ishte ky aktori Eric Dane qe per 1 vit u be per karrige me rrota sot nuk eshte me gjalle, me ka ik truri , eshte shume frikshme sa shpejt progresoj

Keta te privatit me grine, cdo 3 muaj gjysme millioni vetem konsulta dhe analiza, keta ne shteror te lene me prit 2 muaj me u hap nje vend, mos eshte me mire me shku jashte, si ja beni

I was watching the doctor I go to every couple of months, and he was on national television weekend show called "Hippocrates" ,and was talking about health pathologies and mention patients like me, it was so negative, I get i have bad condition but calling me "fateless " hitting lottery for bad genetic made me dreadful 💀😅

What's the purpose, just be done with one life ,I don't care about a life i didn't experience, i have no regrets of what i have missed even though my life is pretty bad and I was very limited with what could I do with it I don't mind ,just live once and that's it ,why would I want to return back experience unnecessary stuff, inequality, racism,bigotry, health issues are inevitable and there isn't any way to be sheltered from unless you get to be privileged, but even a privileged life isn't as good as we think it is

I just had a conversation with my cousin and he never cared for years what I was going through nor tried to help me,and his mom is sick lately and he has none to rely on helping her since they are 4 brothers who work abroad,and he was insisting having me on his contacts unless he needed my help,my question is why should I be a caregiver for free, I know its not ethical to ask about anything when it comes to relatives but Im not your butler jeez, go hire someone ,i pretend to take his contact and deleted the app today ,I owe them nothing,and i want to avoid them as whole ,been no contact despite living 100 metres distance ,have done unpaid labor for my uncle and his wife which they don't consider it as labor, every time I try to distance them from me they try to involve me into their problems

One thing I completely regret is when my sister told me to change high-school, I would have left this deserted poor region that only produces failed individuals, I could have had access to better education healthcare, getu social skills developed, I wss so stupid for not doing right thing, when I remember now I feel like I had no intellect to do right thing and I was so afraid of everything

I don't know much what my uncle went through ,my mom doesn't talk much about him expect saying that he was healthy kid until he went abroad in some difficult times where there was no dignity how migrant workers were treated, he came back few years after ,maybe carrying some depression, other uncles forced him to hospital, on medication and locked him inside completely making him violent,and one day he ended his life