u/NothingImpressive587

My upbringing is very different to my husband's. I am affluent and grew up in a well integrated culture that's more urban and open. I met my husband during my foreign student visa days. It was a tough time because I was in the suburbs where my uncle was a professor at the same university I was studying in. I stayed there because of the support system but it felt very isolating. I fell in love with my now husband who at the time was nice , kind and was much more open. Over the years I am starting to realize how racist he is. He hates black people and now that we have kids together, he doesn't want him to play with black kids. He also doesn't like black people moving to the neighborhood. He admits white culture is superior etc. It sometimes gets to a point I can't tolerate anymore. He is also against immigration. All these contradict his actions. I just don't know what to do. I am sick of this because he is also not as rich as me and I make more money but he is against me working. He is against all women working and he thinks women are dumb. He also has his mother because she worked and they were neglected as kids.

Has anyone been through something similar?

I don't know if any mums were in a similar situation. We were doing fairly ok in NYC. Our baby was happier and things were fine. Then I lost my job and unfortunately my husband is not able to afford rent. He has a good job but he is not a hard worker. He is lazy. Due to this reason he never tried higher paying jobs saying he will have to put in extra hours and he doesn't want to do that. He spends his spare time wasting on video games or on the Internet. There were not big problems before having a baby but now I see the magnitude of his habits and lack of ambition ruining our family/our child's future.

He forced me to move to his parents house knowing I hate the neighborhood. This is in Ohio. I am lost, I don't drive and I am stuck in all day at home with the baby. I have been trying for jobs in NYC and it's been hard getting hired at this time.

I feel lost and depressed. I am also living with his family that has serious mental issues and I sometimes fear having my child around them alone.

I don't know what to do. I feel lost.

Recently moved to the Midwest for obvious reasons, to save some money. Honestly it's very depressing. People aren't talking as much, are staying indoors mostly and no activities etc. I am wondering if anyone has gone through anything similar and how did you survive for a few years?

So I keep reading astrology and it all sounds so optimistic but nothing has come true in my career so far. I am still unemployed. Going to so many interviews and not getting anything..also very tired. Said I will get my articles published. Didn't happen yet either. It's been a really bad year so far. Also relocating because I lost my job and can't afford the current apartment.

I am wondering what I am missing. Every Senior PM (security) I see is coming from a non technical background and I am wondering how they get these jobs? Do they do their job well without understanding the subject matter? Again I recently saw another Senior project manager in security who got promoted after she joined amazon as a recruiter and so on. Kind of shocked because as an outsider I am going through the interview process and not getting through it I have 12+ years of experience in cybersecurity and CISSP