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Salamalaikum and sorry everyone, but I really need to vent.

When I started my journey to Islam 2 years ago, I had just turned 18. Call me naive but I thought reverting would be fun, I thought it would be awesome to really follow what I believe in, I thought that I would make heaps of friends, I thought that I would join a warm and safe community. But it has been far from that.

I’m constantly seen as an “other”, constantly being treated as like I’m an idiot or that I don’t know anything. Constantly being told stuff that I know is 100% wrong. Constantly being told to ignore parts of the Quran because some random obscure Hadith says otherwise.

I feel as though I’m too white to be Muslim and too Muslim to be white. People say “there’s no colour and judgment in Islam” but that is just a lie. I’m constantly having to recite prayers in a language I don’t understand, constantly having to put up with people looking and talking about me in another language. Sure, some people act nice around me, but their eyes betray the truth.

I’m sick of my sisters in Islam either completely avoiding me or leading me on into false hope. Saying stuff like “I’ve always wanted to marry a revert” only for 2 weeks later they have a “proper Muslim”.

I’m sick of being fetishised and mistreated because of my skin. Sick of being told to “go with the other reverts” because no Muslim wants to include me in their community

Salamalaikum and sorry everyone, but I really need to vent.

When I started my journey to Islam 2 years ago, I had just turned 18. Call me naive but I thought reverting would be fun, I thought it would be awesome to really follow what I believe in, I thought that I would make heaps of friends, I thought that I would join a warm and safe community. But it has been far from that.

I’m constantly seen as an “other”, constantly being treated as like I’m an idiot or that I don’t know anything. Constantly being told stuff that I know is 100% wrong. Constantly being told to ignore parts of the Quran because some random obscure Hadith says otherwise.

I feel as though I’m too white to be Muslim and too Muslim to be white. People say “there’s no colour and judgment in Islam” but that is just a lie. I’m constantly having to recite prayers in a language I don’t understand, constantly having to put up with people looking and talking about me in another language. Sure, some people act nice around me, but their eyes betray the truth.

I’m sick of my sisters in Islam either completely avoiding me or leading me on into false hope. Saying stuff like “I’ve always wanted to marry a revert” only for 2 weeks later they have a “proper Muslim”.

I’m sick of being fetishised and mistreated because of my skin. Sick of being told to “go with the other reverts” because no Muslim wants to include me in their community

Salamalaikum and sorry everyone, but I really need to vent.

When I started my journey to Islam 2 years ago, I had just turned 18. Call me naive but I thought reverting would be fun, I thought it would be awesome to really follow what I believe in, I thought that I would make heaps of friends, I thought that I would join a warm and safe community. But it has been far from that.

I’m constantly seen as an “other”, constantly being treated as like I’m an idiot or that I don’t know anything. Constantly being told stuff that I know is 100% wrong. Constantly being told to ignore parts of the Quran because some random obscure Hadith says otherwise.

I feel as though I’m too white to be Muslim and too Muslim to be white. People say “there’s no colour and judgment in Islam” but that is just a lie. I’m constantly having to recite prayers in a language I don’t understand, constantly having to put up with people looking and talking about me in another language. Sure, some people act nice around me, but their eyes betray the truth.

I’m sick of my sisters in Islam either completely avoiding me or leading me on into false hope. Saying stuff like “I’ve always wanted to marry a revert” only for 2 weeks later they have a “proper Muslim”.

I’m sick of being fetishised and mistreated because of my skin. Sick of being told to “go with the other reverts” because no Muslim wants to include me in their community

Salamalaikum and sorry everyone, but I really need to vent.

When I started my journey to Islam 2 years ago, I had just turned 18. Call me naive but I thought reverting would be fun, I thought it would be awesome to really follow what I believe in, I thought that I would make heaps of friends, I thought that I would join a warm and safe community. But it has been far from that.

I’m constantly seen as an “other”, constantly being treated as like I’m an idiot or that I don’t know anything. Constantly being told stuff that I know is 100% wrong. Constantly being told to ignore parts of the Quran because some random obscure Hadith says otherwise.

I feel as though I’m too white to be Muslim and too Muslim to be white. People say “there’s no colour and judgment in Islam” but that is just a lie. I’m constantly having to recite prayers in a language I don’t understand, constantly having to put up with people looking and talking about me in another language. Sure, some people act nice around me, but their eyes betray the truth.

I’m sick of my sisters in Islam either completely avoiding me or leading me on into false hope. Saying stuff like “I’ve always wanted to marry a revert” only for 2 weeks later they have a “proper Muslim”.

I’m sick of being fetishised and mistreated because of my skin. Sick of being told to “go with the other reverts” because no Muslim wants to include me in their community