So I smoked last Saturday for the first time in about a month, I used a pipe, got high twice and took less than 10 hits that day. Well, I applied for a job in fast food and they actually want me however I'm currently reading the handbook and they drug test you before they hire you. It didn't even cross my mind. And now I'm totally freaking out. I think I'm screwed.
Is it just one of those things where they say they're gonna do it but never do? And if you have gotten drug tested at dairy queen, what type of test was it? Urine?
So I smoked last Saturday for the first time in about a month, I used a pipe, got high twice and took less than 10 hits that day. Well, I applied for a job in fast food and they actually want me however I'm currently reading the handbook and they drug test you before they hire you. It didn't even cross my mind. And now I'm totally freaking out. I think I'm screwed.
I started practicing Buddhism last year and I've learned the basics, read the dhammapada, meditate, etc. the one thing I feel like I've been needing to do is go to a temple. I want to go so bad and whenever I ask for advice I get told to go to a temple to further my journey in buddhism, but the problem is I can't! I'm 16, I don't have my license, and the nearest temple is over an hour away and no one will take me. I feel like its such a big part of my journey and everything is pointless if I can't do that. Does anyone have any advice?
For the past couple years I thought I looked like the ugliest person ever, so I used heavy filters and edited my photos so I looked "hot". The photos stopped looking like me at some point and I just recently decided to stop editing my pics like that and be normal.
Now there are two issues, issue #1 is that most of my following are people I hardly/never see in person and I just feel like it would be so embarrassing and weird if I randomly started posting ugly photos of myself like "oh I was never actually pretty im basically a catfish and I'm fucking ugly!"
And issue #2 which is the biggest issue, I am so uncomfortable taking pictures of my actual self now. I never feel pretty without a filter on anymore. It actually got to the point where even with the filter I thought I looked too much like myself and I was too ugly!
My self esteem is so low now, and I am genuinely so embarrassed and ashamed that I hid myself like that for so long. I know I deserve the suffering of fixing the problem I created for myself but does anyone have any advice on this?